and so we go
hey there, its been awhile. i know i have had a looong absence. a lot has happened while i was gone. relationship drama, fistfighting, getting into problems you i dont want to but get into it anyways because i feel the need to protect, etc. so where shall i begin?
well late last year (not sure if ive mentioned this) i managed to patch things up with the mother of my child. started a new better paying job and even got myself a car. things were looking up, peaceful even. then comes to this year where things were a little shaky between my friends and then girlfriend. come february i find out that the mother of my child was having an affair. it tore me up inside real bad. it taught me alot about taking things for granted and to not be so blind about the signs. even though this event had happened to me i was still looked at as the asshole, because then i saw no reason to help other than with my daughter. it made me feel bad but i held my ground about it. things are alright now, im no longer mad, we get along and im happy shes at least trying to find her own way to happiness.
i only have two friends in the world and its hard to talk to them now. one just puts me down, and the other gets mad for anything i say or do. theres no pleasing that one... sucks i cant talk to them about it and am forced to resort to expelling my stresses here. finding a release is hard now. i hate bottling it up. i fear that my friendships are going to end soon. i dont want them to but i feel like im going to be viewed as the cause for it. i cant be myself anymore. i guess its time to change the tides and see where the current leads me.
im leaving out alot, i know. like the fist fights im getting into, the things im doing for my daughter, even my struggles. but oh well, guess youre going to have to wait until the next time. thanks for listening.
well late last year (not sure if ive mentioned this) i managed to patch things up with the mother of my child. started a new better paying job and even got myself a car. things were looking up, peaceful even. then comes to this year where things were a little shaky between my friends and then girlfriend. come february i find out that the mother of my child was having an affair. it tore me up inside real bad. it taught me alot about taking things for granted and to not be so blind about the signs. even though this event had happened to me i was still looked at as the asshole, because then i saw no reason to help other than with my daughter. it made me feel bad but i held my ground about it. things are alright now, im no longer mad, we get along and im happy shes at least trying to find her own way to happiness.
i only have two friends in the world and its hard to talk to them now. one just puts me down, and the other gets mad for anything i say or do. theres no pleasing that one... sucks i cant talk to them about it and am forced to resort to expelling my stresses here. finding a release is hard now. i hate bottling it up. i fear that my friendships are going to end soon. i dont want them to but i feel like im going to be viewed as the cause for it. i cant be myself anymore. i guess its time to change the tides and see where the current leads me.
im leaving out alot, i know. like the fist fights im getting into, the things im doing for my daughter, even my struggles. but oh well, guess youre going to have to wait until the next time. thanks for listening.