just a thought.

[oz813]

for some reason i always thought i knew everything. I always thought that i knew who was on my side and who was against me. I always try to do my best to avoid any direct confrontation because i cant handle it. When i know someone hates me or is mad at me or even if i slighty think that i think that i might have done something that would offend someone i will worry about it untill i know that everything is cleared up. And im sure if i know you that i have at some point in our relationship have done something you prolly didnt like or maybe you dont like me at all but i always try to be my best. and if im not feeling my best i rather just avoid everyone then go out and have to put on a act. And it s not like i am always putting on a act its just that im always nervous that what i say might sound stupid or it wont be funny.i am very concered wiht what other people think and i try my hardest not to let it show. When something is bothering me i wont say anything and i will take it out on myself b.c i shouldnt let myself get angry.

basically lately i have been feeling very out of place. even with people i have known all my life i feel wierd around. and i think i have been acting kind of wierd. but i dunno what to think about things anymore. This year is suppose to be the happiest time. and it is happy,but i have been questioning alot of things about other people about myself. and about things that have happend in the past.

Lately i have been feeling that it is just me against the world.

what it comes down to is that at the end of the day i dont know who to trust,what to think or what to say.

and this is a crazy journal entry and i sound really nuts.

and im not looking for people to say nice things about me or make me feel better. so if u comment dont say anything nice.