Well. here it all is, for anyone who REALLY cares.......

[oz17]

The other day someone asked me why i had been so anti-social with my group of friendsm why i hadn't called people to hang out, why i didn't really WANT to talk to any of them? SO i thought about why I didn't WANT to do any of those things, and then i came to this conclusion: My "Friends" suck. My closets "friends" left me hi and dry like 6 months

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Iknew this would happen...

[yami_xain]

I realize that we haven't been spending as much time togeather as we used to but it has been that way since we had no classes together, but that really isn't why I am commenting here. I can understand why you feel the way you do, but you definately making some harsh conclusions here. I know your scared and it's tough, but when you go blaming people for not reacting to it as you see fit, I don't think thats fair at all - How would one react to something as terrible as your best friend's life on the line, I certainly have never had to deal w/ something that tragic, and I've been trying to handle it logically. All you can do is wait, and depend on your doctors. You must do what you can to halt the progress of it. You may be angry but just plain pissed but don't just give up as you seemingly are, it shows just how much lack of faith you have for your friends. I've been worried about you - ask any one of the group, I've been saying whats up with Josh? Frankly, I too felt disconnected from you and it is that chasm that made it so awkward for me to just randomly come over or call because it seemed like I was burdenning you or just kinda there, I could tell you where unhappy with me, way before this entry. How could I fix it when I thought you didn't want to. You seemed like you had your own exciting life away from me at least.

Obviously we need to talk - call me sometime soon (like Monday after 12:00 Kinda soon )