I don't understand why she does it, and i hate myself for not knowing.

[oz17]

i hate dwelling on the past. but my mom doesn't let me do much else. It's always "remember when you screwed this up?" or "you haven't changed sense this happend" But that's my life. I'm always comparing myself to what i was how ever many years ago, but why do i keep doing that? It's fucking stupid. BUt then theres that sucky part of all this, the

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[alucard5922]

I know it doesn't really mean much from me. I mean, its me, dumbass Trevor. But you've just gotta keep your chin up. I've only known you for a year and I'm always talkin to my friends like, "This cool kid named Josh did this...or He did that." I'm sorry about "Sweets" (whoever she is) and I know it must suck to know that you messed up. No I probably just said something stupid by sayin that. And I don't mean it to be a put down. I can tell you hate your mom, but something inside you, its calling you. From what I read you just want your mom to be happy with you, to accept you. All she looks at is the bad, but she doesn't take the time to stop and look at all the good taht you are. I mean you're the youngest person working at her firm, and you made 3 independent films? Thats a major accomplish ment, and frankly it shouldn't matter if your mom approves. What should only matter is the people/stuff that brings you joy. What should matter is know that your friends care about you and are glad with what your doing. Some of us keep you in our prayers caus we care that much (I know God isn't one of your favourite subjects but doesn't the notion of us thinkin about u cheer you up?) So you just gotta take the punches that come to you and just get back up and say, "No, I'm not going down." You are an inspiration to many. A role model to a lot of kids and colleagues. So you can't let this hate and confusion stop you. You've gotta work through it, and yes everyone is saying it, but just talk to us man. Don't give a fuck about what someone else would think, walk up to someone who you trust and say, "I've gotta talk." If you want, I can be one of those people. Hang tough man.