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[oxymoronsarefun]

so my life is at a time of utter most rational thinking no fucking up at this point

I find myself at a middle of deciding the rest of my life, and stagnent

here I have rediscovered myself as a mere object in the world
where I stand ect ect...

This middle is the time for moevement
but i find myself growing weary
tired, aggravated at my life so far...as if all my ventures, my heros, my accomplishments, are pointless and belittled...
my legs are turning to cement and im running circles to keep the blood moving...
people can only circulate for so long before they trip...

cant I just figure this out?
for the first time Im scarred
Im lonely
Im surrounded by tasks and to-0do lists
somebody give me a breather
inhale me
feel me like a earthquake...
all I really need right now is a companion
asidekick to push me, and defend me, when im too busy to watch my own

I want things to go as follows but I cant help but love taking time to observe scenary

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whenwillmysunshine