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It has been a while. I am ashamed of myself so I am ashamed to come to terms with that by writing in this journal. The mirror of myself. Instead I rather scan the drawlings I've done. I am doing one for a friend now who helped me out a lot. He said he wants to put it in his CD booklet. I am going to minor in Art. I love engineering but I love art, I'll balance. Speaking of engineering, this school is hard. They said college was hard but I thought they meant that for the slackers. That... which I am. I asked Mike if he thinks that if I did a really big drawing, I could sell it. They are called acid drawings, whenever I've showed them to people either the word acid or trip is used. Some people pay would pay for another acid trip to accompany their real acid trip, no? I don't know.
I go to the gym 5 days a week. I am seeing no results as in smaller size just stronger legs. I just don't want the family around the Thanksgiving table to think of me as gaining the freshmen fifteen.
Why I'm ashamed. I was doing good, I didn't smoke, I didn't care.
This exam week, the stress of 3 exams, picking our schedule for Spring at 10pm-2am to get the classes I want and not getting one class I picked due to slow servers. My roommate and her annoyances. I smoked. And I've been.
What makes me more nervous is what they're doing
What makes me more embarassed is what he could become
What makes me happy is that I am going home soon
What makes me jealous is how good he's been looking lately and why is he trying so hard
That also makes me nervous.
I go to the gym 5 days a week. I am seeing no results as in smaller size just stronger legs. I just don't want the family around the Thanksgiving table to think of me as gaining the freshmen fifteen.
Why I'm ashamed. I was doing good, I didn't smoke, I didn't care.
This exam week, the stress of 3 exams, picking our schedule for Spring at 10pm-2am to get the classes I want and not getting one class I picked due to slow servers. My roommate and her annoyances. I smoked. And I've been.
What makes me more nervous is what they're doing
What makes me more embarassed is what he could become
What makes me happy is that I am going home soon
What makes me jealous is how good he's been looking lately and why is he trying so hard
That also makes me nervous.