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So lately i have been a bitch. Im not exactly sure why. But if i have offended anybody lately, im truly sorry. It has gone un-noticed in my mind, till recently. A good friend of mine brought it up today, and i felt really bad. It seems as though i have purposely been mean to people just to make myself comfortable on why im mad. If that makes any sense at all. Im trying to chill out a bit. I have been making myself distant from everyone i love. Im sorry guys.
Ray is weird.. Hes moving fast and its not chill. He wants something more... More than i can give. Hes fucked up though. Well hes not but whats going on is. He says he will call and he wont, he says he will visit, and he doesnt. Ahh incredibly questionable.
Rick is questionable also. Hes such an awesome guy though. He makes me laugh, and hes mysterious, not controling. And we have a lot of stuff in common. But yet we are also very different. He gave me a few signs tonight, but nothing definite. Hes a good friend. I was filming him the whole night.
steph said sorry for a few things she fucked up on awhile ago. I thought that was nice of her. But it was not so nice of her to wait so god damn long. I feel she only said it because shes going through the same thing i was. Whatever though, it would have been nice if she had said it to my face.
And a certain guy is a fag. Someone decided to text me at like 12 to tell me not to text him anymore because he has a girlfriend. Im sorry but if i had any interest in texting him, dont you think i would have. The last time we were texting eachother was when he was broken up with his girlfriend. It was immature, but what do you expect.
Im going to go call him
btw i saw dan cheney tonight, me and chrissy were excited.