Not to low
Im in a pretty calm mood. Im listening to some incubus and this new song. I miss when things were easy, and everything wasnt blended together. I miss not worrying if i would be okay, or if other people were okay. Everything was so easy and all i had to worry about was myself. I didnt have to worry about if the person i loved would stay with me in the end. I didnt have to worry about my family, and my schooling. I never had to worry about my mom getting cancer. And i never had to worry about a good friend surviving in the hospital.
The winter has never been a good time for me. Doctors say the depressed get really down mostly in the winter. I usually get a lot more conciderate in the winter, trying to take care of other people rather than myself. Thats why im always sick and weak. I put all of my energy into everyone else. I bring myself down and think to god damn much. maybe ill try to change that. **think positive. **
My heart goes out to eric and his family, truly. I love you (cupcake) Pull through hunn
"Where have you been all my life?" "Waiting for you" <3
***Cause its all in my head, i think about it over and over again.
I replay it over and over again,***
xo Melissa xo