hmm been thinkin..
Today I watched the Season Finale of Laguna Beach once again...and it hit me a bit harder this time, I'm finally starting to realize I am all grown up now...and I am scared to death!!! I mean I can do the basics to life like clean, cook, laundry, and work...but all the details I am oblivious to, like paying bills and taxes and all that stuff!! I am going to die out there...like really my parents haven't taught me much about the harder things in life...just the simple stuff! And Im not going to any normal college so I don't get the first year of still being half way looked after due to dormlife and whatnot...I have to go straight into my own place and taking care of myself...ALONE! I am so nervous but at the same time excited! I know God has great things in store for me...but I am scared to do it alone...all my life Ive had someone there to hold my hand...but looking at my sisters and seeing them live on their own but still coming home almost everyweekend and stuff does ease the nervousness a bit...because if you think about it...your always welcome to come home, and they will always help you if you need it...so it shouldnt be that bad...
But I will miss my dogs and my girls so much! and of course my other friends...but without my girls its just like all that work gone down the drain, we've learn to understand each other and to trust each other...and now we have to start all over! And I know nobody will replace them and they are only a phone call away...but when they are hours away its kind of hard to just call them up and be like hey lets meet at Ham's, or you wanna go tan? or lets have dinner tonight! But I think we will make it work..and as they say...distance only makes the relationship stronger! And now that I will have my own place and our own rules, Im sure they'll be in to visit quite often :D!