Adios my loves!
Wow its about that time, time to say my goodbyes…cause I’m moving out and going to be on my own! I am so excited but nervous and scared and happy and sad all at the same time! I know my friends won’t be that far away, I know their phone #’s by heart and that they will be turned on 24/7 if I need anything at all! But looking back I am just now starting to appreciate the little town of Summerfield. Sure I complained just about every night because theres never anything to do around here, but I often took for granted those nights because even though we ended up finding a secret place to build a bonfire and listen to country music and just have fun, those were my best memories!! I may live in bumfrig but its really pretty around here, with all the horse pastures and farms and stuff! Im glad I grew up in a town where everyone grows up together and knows each other for most of their lives…its fun to think back on the times when you were younger, but it also makes it even harder to say goodbye! I have been through pretty much all of it during high school, I did the whole crushing on all the older guys and getting hurt, the changing styles and friends and cliques, and of course all the drama and mistakes and learning more about myself throughout the years…but its funny because I am right back to where I started…Im back to hanging out with the girls I hung out with in elementary school, some in middle school, and freshman year, and I am content with my life and how it is…although the love road has been a bumpy one, I have experienced so much from that! Atleast I’ll have Andria in particular with me at Carolina, cause me and her go back to the 1st grade, then I also have Liv whose been my girl since 6th grade, then comes Bryn who I’m living with that’s been a good friend since 8th grade, and I got Lizzy from all the way back to freshman year! But my Katie is going to be all the way @ App L and Mere is gonna be here at UNCG, but I also got Carin and shes gonna be close at State…but I hate to leave my doggies and my parents, my sister lives in Charlotte so I’m used to it but my other sister lives in the Boro and I will miss her lots…I know I’m only going to be an hour and a half away but its routine for me to be around these things everyday! I definitely don’t want to say good bye to Travis…me and him have experienced quite a lot for only dating for a little under a year…but he has made such a huge impact on my life and we have become so close, hes one of my best friends and even though we fight like brother and sister over the stupidest things, I still love him so much…it sucks that we aren’t going to stay together when I move but I need to experience the whole effect of living on my own and going to school and living in Chapel Hill and meeting people and doing new things! But don’t get me wrong…just because we are not together doesn’t mean I’m leaving him behind or anything, I will always care for him and Im sure I will love him for a while and it doesn’t mean I am going to get a new boyfriend or anything like that, its just going to be hard for the both of us…I mean for the past year and a half we’ve hung out with the same crowd all the time and now we just aren’t. Blah, this sucks…but Im sure I will be home often and anyone is more than welcome to come visit! Its just the whole idea of growing up that scares me…its for real this time.