A horrible ending to a decent day
So shit went out with my dance team today and basically, there isnt one anymore. Season's over, better luck next year right? Oh wait I wont be there next year, actually thank God, Ill be in college and Im still very interested in dancing for the Sundolls, I have alot of work to do.
"It's getting better all the time"
I started my new job, Kash n Karry bias! hah its actually fun and I have met some awesome people. One is more awesome then others but thats something I cant mention right now. lol anywho, it doesnt feel like work to me, time flies so fast there esp. when we are busy and I just stand there and scan and hand out money. I got a second job too. My mom got me hired at Suarez, doing some secretary work like filing and such. Hey money is money and now that dance is over I can concentrate on things that matter like, chorus, work, and getting into college.
Its all coming to a close soon. This year is flying by and I am feeling the effects already. I really scared about graduating. I think Im ready to leave high school I dont think Im ready to be physically out on my own with my rents 8 hours away. Thats what Im worried about. Whose gonna take care of her when she is sick and give her, her shots. My dad cant do that. Whose gonna take care of me? Dana? haha jk, well basically Im alittle scared to be without my mom. I think about it all the time but it really hasnt hit me yet that this is it. I take things like this very seriously. Ending one chapter of my life and starting a brand new one. Fresh and new, my chance to make my life different. Can I do it though?
I just realized today that Prom is really soon, like less then 2 months soon. Sharon and I are looking for dresses this weekend. I dont have a date. I have one in mind but I know he wouldnt take me. I want this to be special and have a date that special. He knows who he is. Since I know that wont happen I have some others in mind. Guess we will see what happens. I have alot to do before then, Grad Bash too! YaY!
Sheesh! I dont even know what else to say besides, Im back to being busy... busy=me being ok.
I want some new experiences, I want new adventure, I want that rush again.
Its almost been a year. Still not over him. hah well, my life is a shame but its my life. I want to love him, to make him the happiest guy in the world, I want to be his everything, and give him everything. Dont want it? wow... that makes no sense. But what makes sense to him DEFINATLY doesnt make sense to me. Maybe something will happen with us after high school? Never know what the future holds. I need to live what I have left. (maybe since I said it again it will actually happen)
"It's getting better all the time"
I started my new job, Kash n Karry bias! hah its actually fun and I have met some awesome people. One is more awesome then others but thats something I cant mention right now. lol anywho, it doesnt feel like work to me, time flies so fast there esp. when we are busy and I just stand there and scan and hand out money. I got a second job too. My mom got me hired at Suarez, doing some secretary work like filing and such. Hey money is money and now that dance is over I can concentrate on things that matter like, chorus, work, and getting into college.
Its all coming to a close soon. This year is flying by and I am feeling the effects already. I really scared about graduating. I think Im ready to leave high school I dont think Im ready to be physically out on my own with my rents 8 hours away. Thats what Im worried about. Whose gonna take care of her when she is sick and give her, her shots. My dad cant do that. Whose gonna take care of me? Dana? haha jk, well basically Im alittle scared to be without my mom. I think about it all the time but it really hasnt hit me yet that this is it. I take things like this very seriously. Ending one chapter of my life and starting a brand new one. Fresh and new, my chance to make my life different. Can I do it though?
I just realized today that Prom is really soon, like less then 2 months soon. Sharon and I are looking for dresses this weekend. I dont have a date. I have one in mind but I know he wouldnt take me. I want this to be special and have a date that special. He knows who he is. Since I know that wont happen I have some others in mind. Guess we will see what happens. I have alot to do before then, Grad Bash too! YaY!
Sheesh! I dont even know what else to say besides, Im back to being busy... busy=me being ok.
I want some new experiences, I want new adventure, I want that rush again.
Its almost been a year. Still not over him. hah well, my life is a shame but its my life. I want to love him, to make him the happiest guy in the world, I want to be his everything, and give him everything. Dont want it? wow... that makes no sense. But what makes sense to him DEFINATLY doesnt make sense to me. Maybe something will happen with us after high school? Never know what the future holds. I need to live what I have left. (maybe since I said it again it will actually happen)