Whatever...
This past week has been pretty hectic...Or Ive made it that way at least. My birthday week is offically over, which is cool it was great while it lastest. I'll make a recap right quick...
Monday-Nothing really too big, mostly got ready for the actually birthday day
Tues- Went to Epcot celebrated with friends and stuff got back around 12
Wed- Went to Dinner with Richard, Sharon, Jesse, and Rents
Thurs- Spent movie nigh with the Fam
Fri- Went to Tia's with Erin, Whitney, Bruno, Hike, Darrin, and Cozy, got home at almost 3
Sat- Went to my dad's company Christmas party (Dana was my tagalong) and then went to Channelside afterwards
Sun- RECOVERY DAY!
I'm pooped from the weekend. I've already got plans for next week too.. Thursday Erin, Whit, and I are going to Prana. If I'm still in town that is.. My grandad hasnt been doing well for about a month now, He's been in ICU for about 3 weeks. I guess he told the doctor that he doesnt wanna die in the hospital so they are sending him home with a personal nurse just to make him confrontable until he passes. I guess I'm ok with it, I mean I knew this was gonna happen so it's almost like I prepared myself for it. Which is good for me, cuz I don't take death very well.
I have a show tomorrow night. I got a spotlight, it's the Christmas show. I'm singing Santa Baby. I love the song. lol It's cute. I hope we get a good turn out though.
I've been pretty busy lately. Alot has been going on. All at one time too. I still get lonely some nights. It keeps me awake. I still find myself thinking of him and shedding some tears. I just dont like how things ended. I wish I could make it better, I want to make it better, but that's a two way street that Im going down alone. I'm not so much giving up as I am wanting to be happy. If it's meant to be then it will happen. If not, I'll find someone who will love me and want to be with me. I want that person to be him, but he's happy right now, that's all that matters. If one day I find myself back in his arms I will be the fulfilled. He will always be in my heart and I will always love him. But I have to be happy whether its with him or without him. This week was so fun, I had a good time being who I was and not thinking that there was something wrong with me. Everything happens for a reason, I need to concentrate on myself right now. Getting into college and graduating high school, alot is going to change with the coming new year, bring it on!
It's funny how certain things will show you who really cares about you and who your true friends are.
Dinners ready, I need to spend time with my family. I dont have alot of time left.
Monday-Nothing really too big, mostly got ready for the actually birthday day
Tues- Went to Epcot celebrated with friends and stuff got back around 12
Wed- Went to Dinner with Richard, Sharon, Jesse, and Rents
Thurs- Spent movie nigh with the Fam
Fri- Went to Tia's with Erin, Whitney, Bruno, Hike, Darrin, and Cozy, got home at almost 3
Sat- Went to my dad's company Christmas party (Dana was my tagalong) and then went to Channelside afterwards
Sun- RECOVERY DAY!
I'm pooped from the weekend. I've already got plans for next week too.. Thursday Erin, Whit, and I are going to Prana. If I'm still in town that is.. My grandad hasnt been doing well for about a month now, He's been in ICU for about 3 weeks. I guess he told the doctor that he doesnt wanna die in the hospital so they are sending him home with a personal nurse just to make him confrontable until he passes. I guess I'm ok with it, I mean I knew this was gonna happen so it's almost like I prepared myself for it. Which is good for me, cuz I don't take death very well.
I have a show tomorrow night. I got a spotlight, it's the Christmas show. I'm singing Santa Baby. I love the song. lol It's cute. I hope we get a good turn out though.
I've been pretty busy lately. Alot has been going on. All at one time too. I still get lonely some nights. It keeps me awake. I still find myself thinking of him and shedding some tears. I just dont like how things ended. I wish I could make it better, I want to make it better, but that's a two way street that Im going down alone. I'm not so much giving up as I am wanting to be happy. If it's meant to be then it will happen. If not, I'll find someone who will love me and want to be with me. I want that person to be him, but he's happy right now, that's all that matters. If one day I find myself back in his arms I will be the fulfilled. He will always be in my heart and I will always love him. But I have to be happy whether its with him or without him. This week was so fun, I had a good time being who I was and not thinking that there was something wrong with me. Everything happens for a reason, I need to concentrate on myself right now. Getting into college and graduating high school, alot is going to change with the coming new year, bring it on!
It's funny how certain things will show you who really cares about you and who your true friends are.
Dinners ready, I need to spend time with my family. I dont have alot of time left.