"Nunca sabes lo que tienes hasta que lo pierdes"
My subject is a Juanes lyric, it is in Spanish, but it is how I am feeling right now:
You never know what you have until you lose it.
I have never ever felt this way about a TV show before. Nor have I ever felt so strongly about a book/author, for that matter.
I just spent the last hour looking up Curtis Sittenfeld, reading her interviews and some of her short articles in magazines. It's so weird just how much I can relate to her books, and I also really like her! I regret that I didn't go see her when she came on May 23 to Coolidge Corner. I saw that, but I had no idea how much I really liked her and her books back then!
Whenever I talk about books with people, I always mention Prep, and most people have read it, but they didn't like it and I don't understand why. But tonight I read her Q&A and it's so interesting--she actually says that there are some people who like her book and the protagonist because they can relate so well with them..
KB: At one point the narrator comments about Hannah, “It’s just that college dating, all the rituals and weird outfits and coded things you’re supposed to say-they seem so removed from her particular desired outcome.” Do you have the sense that a lot of people feel exactly as Hannah does, but we just aren’t given access to their thoughts? In other words, is Hannah as different from everyone else as she thinks she is?
CS: The feedback that I got for Prep, and the feedback that I’ve gotten so far for The Man of My Dreams, has been pretty consistent. Some people will say, “I identify so powerfully with this book and I’ve had all these feelings, but I’ve never expressed them or heard them expressed.” And then other people think, Oh, my God, this character is insane. She has such deep social and emotional problems; I don’t know why anyone would want to write a book about her or read about her or get within fifty feet of her.
There are plenty of people who don’t second guess themselves or analyze other people or feel disappointed very often, and then there are people who have those experiences constantly. I had a teacher once who said, “There’s so much fiction about being on the outside because writers feel like outsiders.” His point was that that’s kind of misrepresentative, because most people don’t feel like outsiders-they aren’t the ones who write books.
I am absolutely someone who second guesses herself so much it's more like "when am I not second guessing myself??" which is sorta sad, I suppose.. but I just really like her writing. Although it is a bit embarrassing to read a book with the title "The Man of My Dreams." Like.. come on, couldn't she have thought of a less pretentious chick-lit title? Yuck. When I buy it, I'm shedding the cover and shielding the title on the binding with my hands, haha.
BUT ABOUT EVERWOOD:
I was on an Everwood superfan website, and I read that the network may not release seasons 2, 3, and 4 on DVD!! I was devastated! And the only way they say that it'll ever be possible for another season to come out is for people to buy season 1! So I don't know what came over me, and this is probably really bad, but I've never and would never do this normally, but my dad's credit card was just conveniently sitting on my desk after buying (quite expensive) plane tickets to Hawaii... so I was impulsive and bought season 1. It should come around June 19-21, it said. I bought it even though I borrowed it from the library and spent much time watching the episodes by myself and with Ava. It's just phenomenal. And I freaked out because I was scared that it wouldn't be there in like.. several years when I eventually gather my own income.
It's just SO FRUSTRATING that a crappy, sappy, poorly-written, stupid show like 7th Heaven could have 12 SEASONS and Everwood, which is so amazing with a phenomenally-written script, only gets 4. I never realized how great the writing was until tonight, actually. I'm sure I realized it subconsciously while watching the show, because really, Ephram's sarcastic and cynical comebacks really are incredible. Or just what Ephram says in general.
On losing his virginity:
"I’m not saying it has to be all candles and Coldplay or whatever, but I definitely want my first time to be special.”
And I don't even know what episode this was from, but it's amazing. It should be a college essay.
My Tragic Flaw by Ephram Brown
The more things change, the more they stay the same. I'm not sure who the first person was who said that. Probably Shakespeare. Or maybe Sting. But at the moment, it's the sentence that best explains my tragic flaw: my inability to change.
I don't think I'm alone in this. The more I get to know other people, the more I realize it's kind of everyone's flaw. Staying exactly the same for as long as possible, standing perfectly still... It feels better somehow. And if you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar. Because if you took that leap of faith, went outside the box, did something unexpected... Who knows what other pain might be waiting out there. Chances are it could be even worse.
So you maintain the status quo. Choose the road already traveled and it doesn't seem that bad. Not as far as flaws go. You're not a drug addict. You're not killing anyone... Except maybe yourself a little.
When we finally do change, I don't think it happens like an earthquake or an explosion, where all of a sudden we're like this different person. I think it's smaller than that. The kind of thing most people wouldn't even notice unless they looked at us really,really close. Which, thank God, they never do. But you notice it. Inside you that change feels like a world of difference. And you hope this is it. This is the person you get to be forever... that you'll never have to change again.
This is making me feel all sentimental and mushy and ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
You never know what you have until you lose it.
I have never ever felt this way about a TV show before. Nor have I ever felt so strongly about a book/author, for that matter.
I just spent the last hour looking up Curtis Sittenfeld, reading her interviews and some of her short articles in magazines. It's so weird just how much I can relate to her books, and I also really like her! I regret that I didn't go see her when she came on May 23 to Coolidge Corner. I saw that, but I had no idea how much I really liked her and her books back then!
Whenever I talk about books with people, I always mention Prep, and most people have read it, but they didn't like it and I don't understand why. But tonight I read her Q&A and it's so interesting--she actually says that there are some people who like her book and the protagonist because they can relate so well with them..
KB: At one point the narrator comments about Hannah, “It’s just that college dating, all the rituals and weird outfits and coded things you’re supposed to say-they seem so removed from her particular desired outcome.” Do you have the sense that a lot of people feel exactly as Hannah does, but we just aren’t given access to their thoughts? In other words, is Hannah as different from everyone else as she thinks she is?
CS: The feedback that I got for Prep, and the feedback that I’ve gotten so far for The Man of My Dreams, has been pretty consistent. Some people will say, “I identify so powerfully with this book and I’ve had all these feelings, but I’ve never expressed them or heard them expressed.” And then other people think, Oh, my God, this character is insane. She has such deep social and emotional problems; I don’t know why anyone would want to write a book about her or read about her or get within fifty feet of her.
There are plenty of people who don’t second guess themselves or analyze other people or feel disappointed very often, and then there are people who have those experiences constantly. I had a teacher once who said, “There’s so much fiction about being on the outside because writers feel like outsiders.” His point was that that’s kind of misrepresentative, because most people don’t feel like outsiders-they aren’t the ones who write books.
I am absolutely someone who second guesses herself so much it's more like "when am I not second guessing myself??" which is sorta sad, I suppose.. but I just really like her writing. Although it is a bit embarrassing to read a book with the title "The Man of My Dreams." Like.. come on, couldn't she have thought of a less pretentious chick-lit title? Yuck. When I buy it, I'm shedding the cover and shielding the title on the binding with my hands, haha.
BUT ABOUT EVERWOOD:
I was on an Everwood superfan website, and I read that the network may not release seasons 2, 3, and 4 on DVD!! I was devastated! And the only way they say that it'll ever be possible for another season to come out is for people to buy season 1! So I don't know what came over me, and this is probably really bad, but I've never and would never do this normally, but my dad's credit card was just conveniently sitting on my desk after buying (quite expensive) plane tickets to Hawaii... so I was impulsive and bought season 1. It should come around June 19-21, it said. I bought it even though I borrowed it from the library and spent much time watching the episodes by myself and with Ava. It's just phenomenal. And I freaked out because I was scared that it wouldn't be there in like.. several years when I eventually gather my own income.
It's just SO FRUSTRATING that a crappy, sappy, poorly-written, stupid show like 7th Heaven could have 12 SEASONS and Everwood, which is so amazing with a phenomenally-written script, only gets 4. I never realized how great the writing was until tonight, actually. I'm sure I realized it subconsciously while watching the show, because really, Ephram's sarcastic and cynical comebacks really are incredible. Or just what Ephram says in general.
On losing his virginity:
"I’m not saying it has to be all candles and Coldplay or whatever, but I definitely want my first time to be special.”
And I don't even know what episode this was from, but it's amazing. It should be a college essay.
My Tragic Flaw by Ephram Brown
The more things change, the more they stay the same. I'm not sure who the first person was who said that. Probably Shakespeare. Or maybe Sting. But at the moment, it's the sentence that best explains my tragic flaw: my inability to change.
I don't think I'm alone in this. The more I get to know other people, the more I realize it's kind of everyone's flaw. Staying exactly the same for as long as possible, standing perfectly still... It feels better somehow. And if you are suffering, at least the pain is familiar. Because if you took that leap of faith, went outside the box, did something unexpected... Who knows what other pain might be waiting out there. Chances are it could be even worse.
So you maintain the status quo. Choose the road already traveled and it doesn't seem that bad. Not as far as flaws go. You're not a drug addict. You're not killing anyone... Except maybe yourself a little.
When we finally do change, I don't think it happens like an earthquake or an explosion, where all of a sudden we're like this different person. I think it's smaller than that. The kind of thing most people wouldn't even notice unless they looked at us really,really close. Which, thank God, they never do. But you notice it. Inside you that change feels like a world of difference. And you hope this is it. This is the person you get to be forever... that you'll never have to change again.
This is making me feel all sentimental and mushy and ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.