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It's like tomorrow, I'm being forced back into the present after being in the future today. Staying at Barnard last night and visiting today was great and helped me confirm my decision of going there next year. It helped me to evict those second thoughts last Sunday, which, I found out, were shared by my friend, Jennie, as well! I IMed her tonight and that was like.. the first thing she said to me, how she felt sorta out of place and that she thought we were pretty much the only public school kids there. And I was really glad to be able to reassure her that my experience there today was incredible and beautiful and I can totally imagine the both of us being there next year. It was Spirit Day today, which I don't even think that Celine, my friend who I stayed with, realized until last night, which was sorta funny. But they had a barbecue and balloons and they were selling T-shirts and students were bustling around the walk and it was incredible. And then during one of the panels, there was an alumna from '04 who transferred during her junior year to Barnard and she just said that she had been at a good college that was in the middle of nowhere for her first two years, but felt like there was something missing. And she realized that it was that she was only getting filled academically, but not intellectually. That after class was over, books closed and parties started. But at Barnard, she knew that she was missing the intellectual discussions outside of the classrooms and the passion for education shared by the students. And that was so exciting.
When I got home, I pulled out the reply forms from the other colleges and kindly responded "No, please withdraw my application.. I will be attending Barnard." It's a good feeling :)

But then tomorrow.. I still have to go to high school. It was like a teaser: "This is what it will be like in a few months.. it's so much better... but you can't have it yet!"
Oh well, at least it's a late start tomorrow.