We are breathing the breath
"Lord, we're breathing the breath
That You gave us to breathe
To worship You, to worship You
And we're singing thses songs
With the very same breath
To worship You, to worship You."
So amazing. ah.
I was reading my last entry, and I realized that the reason why Suzy knows that I like it when Matt Redman says "Sing it, church!" is because I wrote it in my LJ, and not because I told her directly. And the reason why John and Suzy know about my love for the intense exciting banging parts of songs is because I wrote that Charlie Hall lyric. So that's interesting, not in a bad way, but just funny to think about that we joke about things that I write in my livejournal.
I also just had a realization. Everybody may be different in their statuses with relationships or their family or wealth, and other people may have things that I do not. But what I have that I wish everybody else had as well is the knowledge of God's love. Would I rather have a boyfriend and not know God? When it comes down to that, it's obvious which choice I would choose. Of course, if you follow God and have the bonus of all of the great earthly things as well...then you just got a bonus. They are just extra. They should not be what satisfies. Only God satisfies; He satisfies in an indescribable way.
This past weekend at YEC, I had initially believed that it would not be as good as the one last year. And while it was definitely different because there were a lot of new (and exciting!) people... I was able to realize just how much I have grown in my faith these past years. The 'moment' I always describe is at YEC two years ago, during "Here I Am To Worship" and this year.. I was one of those teens standing and praising God without shame or uncertainty.
I actually felt older, both in the context of YEC and in the context of DYC. There were so many junior high kids swarming around us, and for a moment, when they were walking by us when we were switching rooms yesterday morning, I just thought, "I was like that 6 years ago. I was tiny. And now I'm not so tiny anymore." And then during the 2006 lunch meeting yesterday, they were talking about college and how it is the place where the world will tempt you. I hadn't been at some sort of college meeting since I applied, and it was another mini-revelation that I was going to college next year. That I might actually use the laundry bag they gave us. I'm going to have to do my own laundry. I'm going to have to find my own food. I'll just keep journaling this over and over again, I know. Because it will never fully hit me until I actually get there.
And then there was the other realization that... I am not going to have DYC next year. And it is something I don't want to fathom. Having that group is such a normal part of my life. And half of the people I talk to there, I only talk to and see when we have these weekends together. They are my family, but I don't know what is going to become of us once we all leave and go our separate ways. Like Jessica, for example. She and I are such great friends, except that we barely talk outside of the DYC weekends. I'm not even going to be able to see and communicate with Suzy, John, and Rob as often, and they are three of the most influential adults in my life.
So I guess I'm a little scared. It's the first time I have not been sure about what I'm going to do or where I'm going to be. I'll get over it. It'll be fine, I'm not worried-- because nothing is going to separate me from the Father's love :-)
This is my favorite line out of all of Jami Smith's songs this weekend:
I am different
I am changed
By your mercy I can love like You love.
Because I am so changed. Incredibly changed. Indescribably changed. Forever changed. Marvelously changed. Gloriously changed. (any more, any more? hahaa)
I love when Chris Tomlin shouts "ALLRIGHT, ALLRIGHT, ONE TWO THREE GOOO" in "On Our Side" and then compleeetely just starts jamming and I can just imagine his little self jumping on the stage like he did in Nashville. hahaaa
That You gave us to breathe
To worship You, to worship You
And we're singing thses songs
With the very same breath
To worship You, to worship You."
So amazing. ah.
I was reading my last entry, and I realized that the reason why Suzy knows that I like it when Matt Redman says "Sing it, church!" is because I wrote it in my LJ, and not because I told her directly. And the reason why John and Suzy know about my love for the intense exciting banging parts of songs is because I wrote that Charlie Hall lyric. So that's interesting, not in a bad way, but just funny to think about that we joke about things that I write in my livejournal.
I also just had a realization. Everybody may be different in their statuses with relationships or their family or wealth, and other people may have things that I do not. But what I have that I wish everybody else had as well is the knowledge of God's love. Would I rather have a boyfriend and not know God? When it comes down to that, it's obvious which choice I would choose. Of course, if you follow God and have the bonus of all of the great earthly things as well...then you just got a bonus. They are just extra. They should not be what satisfies. Only God satisfies; He satisfies in an indescribable way.
This past weekend at YEC, I had initially believed that it would not be as good as the one last year. And while it was definitely different because there were a lot of new (and exciting!) people... I was able to realize just how much I have grown in my faith these past years. The 'moment' I always describe is at YEC two years ago, during "Here I Am To Worship" and this year.. I was one of those teens standing and praising God without shame or uncertainty.
I actually felt older, both in the context of YEC and in the context of DYC. There were so many junior high kids swarming around us, and for a moment, when they were walking by us when we were switching rooms yesterday morning, I just thought, "I was like that 6 years ago. I was tiny. And now I'm not so tiny anymore." And then during the 2006 lunch meeting yesterday, they were talking about college and how it is the place where the world will tempt you. I hadn't been at some sort of college meeting since I applied, and it was another mini-revelation that I was going to college next year. That I might actually use the laundry bag they gave us. I'm going to have to do my own laundry. I'm going to have to find my own food. I'll just keep journaling this over and over again, I know. Because it will never fully hit me until I actually get there.
And then there was the other realization that... I am not going to have DYC next year. And it is something I don't want to fathom. Having that group is such a normal part of my life. And half of the people I talk to there, I only talk to and see when we have these weekends together. They are my family, but I don't know what is going to become of us once we all leave and go our separate ways. Like Jessica, for example. She and I are such great friends, except that we barely talk outside of the DYC weekends. I'm not even going to be able to see and communicate with Suzy, John, and Rob as often, and they are three of the most influential adults in my life.
So I guess I'm a little scared. It's the first time I have not been sure about what I'm going to do or where I'm going to be. I'll get over it. It'll be fine, I'm not worried-- because nothing is going to separate me from the Father's love :-)
This is my favorite line out of all of Jami Smith's songs this weekend:
I am different
I am changed
By your mercy I can love like You love.
Because I am so changed. Incredibly changed. Indescribably changed. Forever changed. Marvelously changed. Gloriously changed. (any more, any more? hahaa)
I love when Chris Tomlin shouts "ALLRIGHT, ALLRIGHT, ONE TWO THREE GOOO" in "On Our Side" and then compleeetely just starts jamming and I can just imagine his little self jumping on the stage like he did in Nashville. hahaaa