I am wholly, wholly yours

[oxoheyyouoxo]

I liked the Life On The Way Devotional I received in my Inbox today (it's great, now the one automated message I get each day is a devotional and NOT an SAT question of the day)

Paul wrote, "I planted the seed in your hearts, and Apollos watered it, but it was God who made it grow. It's not important who does the planting, or who does the watering

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[oxoheyyouoxo]

Thank you, Paul. And I have been rereading what I wrote before in my original entry and I realize that what Ben said does not coincide with what you wrote.

So I want to write a clarification. What I do is not what God always wants. That's because I have that choice, that free will as Paul said in his comment, to do what I want. It's up to me to decide whether I will listen to God. Where I am and what happens to me is not what God always wants. But no matter what happens, He will always be there.

What I also mean is that what I do and what I say and who I am morphs me into the person I become. And I think that statement is already interesting as it is, without any sort of reference to God. It's funny to think about that I could be this other person, but I'm not because I have not led the life they have led and met the people they have met and experienced their experiences.

When I write in lj, I probably don't make sense all the time and are saying things that I might not 100% believe in because they can be interpreted in many ways. I'm simply pouring out the thoughts of my head. I am not trying to convince anyone of my thoughts. People can comment on what they think about what I'm thinking, but it's not like I'm publishing a book or anything. I'm just writing about whatever's in my head and sometimes I might type something that I later realize I don't actually agree with, which is shown in this case because I realize that I don't agree with Ben's statement anymore because I am not going to hold God responsible for the actions I choose to make. I am not God, as I said in an earlier comment.

Just thank you Paul, once again. I needed someone else to step in because I really am not the right person to explain all of these things. I hope to someday become more educated. But for now, I'm just trying to slowly figure out what I believe and don't believe.