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well today was hell.. the beginning was alright... brian came over and i felt loved lol. and we ate but then i broke down in fron of him and taryn cuz of some things i was thinking about that got to me. and then well they made me feel better.. then taryn left to go see sandy and me and brian went to go play some pool and i beat him 10 games and he only beat me 2! ha! then chris came in and chilled with us.. then cait, adam, and christina cme in and we talked and then me and brian left and we watched the prom video.. yeah i have NO movies.
then we talked for awhile and well i am glad that i am with him cuz i feel so comfortable around him and well he is always there for me.. even for just venting =) and then he went home and i went online and well i dont know what was said at sarah's or whatever but she is pissed at me and for what i dont know? she just went off n me and i dont know what was said to her.. all i said in my journal was that i was afriad of loosing her and that i try to call her or hang out with her but it seems like she doesnt want to.. all i did was try.. well i guess i was right and that i was gonna loose her. and what did i do?? seriously?? all i did was try to hang out with her and call her.
i dont know. all i know is that it really hurts to loose a best friend when u didnt do n e thing. whatever.. i dont know.. all i did was try to be her friend. and yeah i felt she didnt want to be friends but i mean i didnt know she was gonna get mad over it. i dont know.. i guess things change and people change. i couldnt help it. i didnt do n e thing.. if i did no one told me.. and i cant think of n e thing. she said i talked shit.. but i didnt say n e thing but that i was afraid of loosing her! that isnt meant to offen her.. i didnt want to loose her! ugh! i cant talk about this n e more i am sick of just breaking down all day in front of people and well i am just gonna go to bed.
then we talked for awhile and well i am glad that i am with him cuz i feel so comfortable around him and well he is always there for me.. even for just venting =) and then he went home and i went online and well i dont know what was said at sarah's or whatever but she is pissed at me and for what i dont know? she just went off n me and i dont know what was said to her.. all i said in my journal was that i was afriad of loosing her and that i try to call her or hang out with her but it seems like she doesnt want to.. all i did was try.. well i guess i was right and that i was gonna loose her. and what did i do?? seriously?? all i did was try to hang out with her and call her.
i dont know. all i know is that it really hurts to loose a best friend when u didnt do n e thing. whatever.. i dont know.. all i did was try to be her friend. and yeah i felt she didnt want to be friends but i mean i didnt know she was gonna get mad over it. i dont know.. i guess things change and people change. i couldnt help it. i didnt do n e thing.. if i did no one told me.. and i cant think of n e thing. she said i talked shit.. but i didnt say n e thing but that i was afraid of loosing her! that isnt meant to offen her.. i didnt want to loose her! ugh! i cant talk about this n e more i am sick of just breaking down all day in front of people and well i am just gonna go to bed.