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It's been a year and a Maawfuckin' day since I said anything in here.
Shit's been crummy.
Not so much for any particular reason, I just don't like how my life is moving along. I mean, I have no major problems, but also nothing is going well for me.
I've decided Fuck dudes. They just lead to trouble. . . or mostly just pain and unanswerable questions. I would really like to have a boyfriend. It's not like I don't have feelings, but I can't get/keep the boys I want. WhorexCore is the way to go.
My parents think I'm a freak and they don't trust me. My dad told me today that if I wear bright colors on my eyes I'll look like a freak. My mom seems approving of the new 'do I want. It's really short and multi-colored. I hope I can rock it. That's pleasant. Maybe just MAYBE I'll get my lip done this summer, I think I can pull it off. I mean it's summer, when am I ever going to be home? Never. Especially after I get my license. My job allows two visible piercings that are not on the ear, so I'll be straight.
So, I work at Claire's. I don't like it. I hate closing with my manager. I hate the way she says my name Leeeee-saa. Grolls. The pays not tooo bad considering it's a first job, but I'd MUCH rather have a waitressing job. I admit that I'm clumsy, but I'd make so much more money. This pay check is going to be big for me and it's only like $200. That wack bullshit. I have to save for summer school, because my parents are amazing and are making me do it.
So, I think I want to take basic classes at a University (( I need to pick a school. RU?)) and go to a cosmetology school. I want to be a make-up artist and cut hair. Of course In the end it would be nice if I could work for a big name company like MAC. They're my favorite and I'm a make-up whore. Only really, I'm a fiend.
Also, this summer I want to take a road trip down to Florida. I'll be driving at the end and will hopefully have a car. I need to start putting away more of my check though. So far it's only been $60 every two weeks ((minus the $20 Chelsea borrowed.)) I should up it a little, even if it means cutting back on the make-up and clothes I acctually like. those are most of the time free though. I really need to stop coppin' ish. One day it's going to get me in trouble and fuck up my future. I also need to stop being so profane.
I like that I have everything planned out like this (( Even though I'm now attending summer school alone. Kimberleigh ran away and Chesea failed.)). I just need someone in there to make me feel loved more than anything., but not in a Lisa/Chelsea way or a friend way.
It chokes on a dick that I won't get to have my whoa-man too often. Also, I shall miss my Autumn Nicole Gray entirely much more than is healthy. She's the reason I want to take my trip to FL this summer. I'm glad she's finally happy down there though. I love her soooo much. she's always been awesome to me, even if I didn't deserve it.
<3 Lisa Marie .