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Feeling rather sad and down. I had a message from a friend saying they'd be in Oxford on Saturday if we wanted to meet. I said yes but Rob double booked us and we were supposed to go see his friend before we got to the restaurant. Only Rob took his time and we were late and my friend called as they couldn't get a table before 1.30 and asked if we should meet somewhere else before. Only R had made no move to leave his friend's place yet. My friend got hurt and upset, understandably. They'd come all the way from Hinckley and their little girl must have been cold and hungry. They cancelled the table and she texted me to say how sh... that was. She was right but I had no way to change that situation. I'm gutted to have lost a friend for myself and for Grace. The 2 girls get on so well and all they'll remember of us will be being stood up in Oxford on a freezing day.
I've apologised, of course, and so has Rob, but it doesn't make it better. I'm really sad and so acutely aware of having hurt them, although it wasn't entirely my fault. I'm losing sleep over this and I feel like I'm the shittiest human being on earth. I hate people being hurt but hurting them myself is so much worth. I'm sorry and don't think things can be mended :_(
I've apologised, of course, and so has Rob, but it doesn't make it better. I'm really sad and so acutely aware of having hurt them, although it wasn't entirely my fault. I'm losing sleep over this and I feel like I'm the shittiest human being on earth. I hate people being hurt but hurting them myself is so much worth. I'm sorry and don't think things can be mended :_(