Thursday!~
Welp today was a pretty damn good day with summer school and everything. I got to see everyone of my friends there and I was happy to see the man I can't have and the other two Chris and Nate who are major hotties and my friends. I got to touch Tony's hair today which is really awesome because its like really big and poofy. It had hair-gell or hairspray in it today I think, because it was a little soft and then a lil crunchy in other ways.
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Anyways Chris my friend is like uber HOTT! I do like him but, my girlfriend likes him too and that wouldn't be good and I wish I didn't like him but, I do and I can't stop it. Maybe I am just trying to get over the two guys that I like in my life and can't have and that just might be Greg Schellhorn and Dakota D. I am just not meant to have a good boyfriend or good man in my life I guess but, maybe that is because I am a horrible girlfriend to everyone too. I mean there was/had to be a reason for why Karessa did what she did but, oh freaking well dude. OMG I was really disapointed that I couldn't go to Worlds Of Fun Tuesday but, I think my youth leader might lets us go next Tuesday because lol yeah, yeah I really want to go for reasons. Like I am tired of being on lock-down because it really fucking sucks ass. I got grounded for grades whooo-hooo dude!~
OMG I wrote a song lastnight but, I don't know if its any good though I will have to work on it some but, I will let you read my song and then you guys can tell me what you all think about it!~
"I Don't Know Why"
"Chorus"~
I don't know why?
Why I do this to myself.
I don't deserve this and what
I'm doing to myself
Everyday I am hurting on the inside
But, outside I show a different me
And that other me is just a mask
Only to cover up the anger and the pain
That is in me everyday
Chorus
There is times when I go to sleep
Hoping not to wake up, just to see another day
I'm so tired of always hurting and
Always complaining,
I can't take it nomore, No I can't do this anymore
Why am I always hurting myself
Chorus
God please send an Angel,
Oh god take away all this pain, and Suffrage
That I have to live with everyday.
Chorus x2
Well there was my song and be honest with me and let me know what you really think of it and tell me if it is any good!~
♥ Ciara ♥
lj-cut/
Anyways Chris my friend is like uber HOTT! I do like him but, my girlfriend likes him too and that wouldn't be good and I wish I didn't like him but, I do and I can't stop it. Maybe I am just trying to get over the two guys that I like in my life and can't have and that just might be Greg Schellhorn and Dakota D. I am just not meant to have a good boyfriend or good man in my life I guess but, maybe that is because I am a horrible girlfriend to everyone too. I mean there was/had to be a reason for why Karessa did what she did but, oh freaking well dude. OMG I was really disapointed that I couldn't go to Worlds Of Fun Tuesday but, I think my youth leader might lets us go next Tuesday because lol yeah, yeah I really want to go for reasons. Like I am tired of being on lock-down because it really fucking sucks ass. I got grounded for grades whooo-hooo dude!~
OMG I wrote a song lastnight but, I don't know if its any good though I will have to work on it some but, I will let you read my song and then you guys can tell me what you all think about it!~
"I Don't Know Why"
"Chorus"~
I don't know why?
Why I do this to myself.
I don't deserve this and what
I'm doing to myself
Everyday I am hurting on the inside
But, outside I show a different me
And that other me is just a mask
Only to cover up the anger and the pain
That is in me everyday
Chorus
There is times when I go to sleep
Hoping not to wake up, just to see another day
I'm so tired of always hurting and
Always complaining,
I can't take it nomore, No I can't do this anymore
Why am I always hurting myself
Chorus
God please send an Angel,
Oh god take away all this pain, and Suffrage
That I have to live with everyday.
Chorus x2
Well there was my song and be honest with me and let me know what you really think of it and tell me if it is any good!~
♥ Ciara ♥