Due for an update!~
I am sorry that I haven't been able to update because lately everytime that I start. I always ex out of the journal entry that I am writing or my computer freezes. Alot has been happening and the big things though are that Greg and I doing great. I went to the mall the other night with my bestfriend Nicci and my cousin Eva and we look at cloths. I looked at some really cute skirts and I had found this one I really, really liked. Well guess what I had no fucking money at this fucking TIME and I therefor couldn't get it. Then when I went back today to get the damn skirt my size wasn't there no more because some Assface turd. Lol! TOOK ITTTT!!! Grrr... I am very, very, very sadden by it too. Although I found another skirt I liked as well and I got that one too.
Before that I had to go to Gadzooks and look at this one skirt in there and found out that this one size was too small for my bigggg buttt! Anyways today on the bus I was talking to my friend Lacey. I thought that she was my friend anyways but, I found out that she isn't or she can't take a joke, or I took my joke too far. Anyways, she started yelling at me because I called her a ho or told her she looked like a ho. I was FUCKING only JOKING of course but, peole always fucking take me sooooo god damn seriouse all the damn time. And when she heard me say that she got all defencive twards me and when I went to point out a part of her shirt that was showing her boobs she coverd up her chest. Then started yelling and acted as if I was checking her out or what the fuck ever.
Then I told her that I don't need to be checking out a bunch of girls because I am already taken Lacey. Just because someone if fucking Bisexual. Don't fucking mean that they are going to always be checking out someone of the same sex or whatever. I mean it sounds to me like she was being a biggit. (SP) I mean I could be wrong and she wasn't trying to make me feel bad or nothing but, she did it and she then made it fucking worse when she said something to fucking C.W.... Then she yells my name and goes " why did you call her a ho or tell she was one "? I was like I never did I was freaking joking and told her, omg you look like a ho.
If she was friend of mine she would have known I was freaking joking about all of that. C.W. was like so what you shouldn't be calling people ho's. C.W.= " You should look at yourself before you say shit. " It kinda hurts me when people do that shit to me, for real. I hate no being able to tell anyone my problems ever, for real. Well after all that I started to cry a lil on the bus while writing my friend Jacob a note about all that because I felt the need to vent and tell someone about what was going on because no one else wanted to hear about it.
The second I get off the bus I start balling, loud, hard, and screaming I guess in a way. I came into my room and plopped onto my bed and balled for a bout an hour or so till I cried myself to sleep. I felt so much better though when I wroke up to find some message's from some friends of mine, saying to not cry and not listen to what people have to say to me. About anything not even my whole sexuality problem either. That to like ignore it. I love my friends, Nicci, Audrey, and Stephanie!
I'm out like a 3rd strike!~ *~* Till I Wake Up *~*
*~* From This Nightmare *~*
*~* God Calls My Life *~*