Could anyone make my life any worse!~
GOD WHAT THE FUCK IS EVERYONES GOD DAMN PROBLEM ANYMORE! DO THEY ENJOY HURTING ME AND TEARING ME UP. I MEAN FUCK IT AIN'THAT THINGS AREN'T BAD ENOUGH FOR ME AS IT IS THAT JESSICA MALONEY HAS TO MAKE MY SHIT WORSE!!!!! IT AIN'T BAD ENOUGH THAT I AM HAVING TROUBLE WITH SCHOOL, THAT I LOST THAT MAN OF MY DREAMS, MY FAMILY IS HAVEING PROBLEMS. EMOTIONAL PROBLEMS THAT IS! THEN I AM LOOSING LIKE HALF OF MY FRIENDS AND I HAVEN'T REALLY EVEN DONE ANYTHING TO THEM TO MAKE THEM WANT TO HATE ME! THEN I HAVEN'T EVEN GOT TO SEE 2 OF MY BESTFRIENDS FOR LIKE IT SEEMS FOREVER! I KEEP GAINING WEIGHT EVERYDAY AND I AM GOING TO BE UGLY AND FAT AND NO ONE WILL EVER WANT ME. I DON'T GET RESPECT FROM ANYONE AND ALL I DO IS GIVE RESPECT TO PEOPLE. I ONLY WANT TO BE FRIENDS WITH EVERYONE, I CAN'T STAND HATING PEOPLE! THEN ON TOP OF THAT I WAS SUPER HAPPY BECAUSE I FOUND OUT THAT MY SISTER WAS PREGNANT. THEN THINGS TURN AROUND AND SHE STARTS BLEEDING AND SHE SAYS SHE MIGHT LOSE HER BABY. NO ONE WILL PRAY FOR HER EITHER BUT, MY FAMILY, HER HUSBANDS FAMILY, HER, HER HUSBAND, AND MY BESTFRIEND NICCI! I CAN'T STAND ALL THIS PRESSURE AND I EVEN HATE BEING ME MOST DAYS. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY I WAS PUT ON THIS EARTH TO LIVE. BECAUSE IF THIS IS SOME JOKE GOD IS PLAYING IT HAS GONE TO FAR AND I AM TIRED. IF HE PUT ME DOWN HERE FOR PEOPLE TO JUST THROW AROUND LIKE SOME PEICE OF DIRT OR TRASH HE SUCCEEDED IN HIS GOAL BECAUSE THAT IS EXACLY WHAT HAS HAPPEND.
THEN JESSICA MALONEY DOES THIS SHIT TO ME!~ TELLS ME THAT BEN HATES ME AND DON'T WANT TO BE MY FRIEND ANYMORE. KIND OF DREW THE STRAWL FOR ME. I AM DONE WITH PEOPLE, AND TRUSTING ANYONE! I CAN'T GO ONE WITH THIS DEPRESSION, PAIN, HURT, AND TORURE. LONG ENOUGH AND ITS TIME THAT IT ENDS! TODAY, AND RIGHT NOW!~ FUCK THIS SHIT AND THIS BULLSHIT GOD CALLS MY LIFE!!!!!~~~
*~* TILL I WAKE UP *~*
*~* FROM THIS NIGHTMARE *~*
*~* GOD CALLS MY LIFE *~*
CIARA,