i really can't choose.
I've just had a completely bad day today.Lets see i was running late for school this morning and when that happens i know i'm going to have a bad day.Some classes were okay others were.The only good part about chorus 4ht period today was we had the senior sandwhich which makes me happier then anyone i swear.I failed my spanish quiz b/c i went to the bathroom and when i walked into class she put me on the spot and asked me a question that i knew kind of but no completely.so i just said i don't know.what the fuck.People at lunch piss me off.My shins are fucking killing.Oh and i have to go to the doctors now to get my oblique muscle checked b/c mike doesn't think it's a pulled muscle anymore.I had to work tonight.I had my guidance apppointment for my college stuff.It's so scary and soo much work.I'm already stressing i don't even know what to do.Ughh i'm soo scared andn nervous to take the SATS and stuff.My gpa isn't as great as i thought it was.Everything is buildling up and the thing with going to the doctors is if there is something wrong i may not get cleared for indoor which we still don't have a coach for.Sucks sucks sucks.Oh SADD officer meeting not to be bad.Trish left me at school so i ad to call danny.I'm just having a bad day.I want to cry.I wish it was friday.Peeshna won't be there tomorrow either cause she's going to the hopsital to get some kind of surgery on her face or something.It's not like the real surgery but it's like the first procedure for it.I'm nervous for her.But were getting her get well soon balloons and a get well soon card and were giving it to her on friday.Thats like the highlight of my week.I'm gonna really miss her.<333.I have to do homework and make tyler a card which i'm to tired to do and i really don't want to.I'm just blahh.There's a lot more bothering me but i don't want to writei t all down in here.I think i'm gonna go cry or something.oh and i have to write a essay in spanish which i don't even know how to say half of the words.fuckin gay.i'm gonna suck at life once again.
Oh and my friendship with kate is like over but i don't really want it to be and i just don't know.Stacy did give me some good advice tonight but other then that i need to see my therapist.i really have a lot to talk about and vent.I miss leah soooooooo much and i want to seee her sooo bad cause i love her sooo much and i don't know.She keeps talking about going to boston to graduate school and like i don't know everytime she says it i want to cry cause i dont want her to go.i want her to be happy tho but i just don't want her to leave me.I get bad feelings everytime she talks about it.I have to go tho.i need to do homework.
Oh and my friendship with kate is like over but i don't really want it to be and i just don't know.Stacy did give me some good advice tonight but other then that i need to see my therapist.i really have a lot to talk about and vent.I miss leah soooooooo much and i want to seee her sooo bad cause i love her sooo much and i don't know.She keeps talking about going to boston to graduate school and like i don't know everytime she says it i want to cry cause i dont want her to go.i want her to be happy tho but i just don't want her to leave me.I get bad feelings everytime she talks about it.I have to go tho.i need to do homework.