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I cant do it.
I cant pick a college.
I cant pick a major, or a career.
I'm not ready to choose what I want to do for the rest of my life.
And what happens if I don't want to do ONE thing for the rest of my life? What if I want to do many things?
I want to teach. I want to do something with psychology. I want to translate and write for a magazine and make movies and write books and plan weddings and be a novel editor and do everything that makes me happy and when I stop being happy I want to have the option of CHANGING MY MIND.
And theres no major for the indecisive. But I can't choose. I'm not ready to.
"You're going to U of M? Wow thats incredible, its such a great school. What are you going to be?"
..."Well right now I'm looking into teaching"
"You're going to U of M to TEACH?, man you're going to have so many loans to pay off, and teaching just isnt going to cut it. and U of M isnt a school for teaching, for that you want to look into State or Central."
Yea? Well I dont want to go there. I want to go to U of M. I like it best, I can see myself there. Its the best school this state has to offer, and one of the best this country has to offer. The best of the best attend Michigan. I want to be a part of that. I loved it there. I loved the atmosphere. I loved Ann Arbor. I loved the scenery, it was all so pretty. What I saw of State was not pretty. The effing river that everyone loves so much is brown and gross. I dont want to go there. Central is an effing party school with a bunch of losers. They are begging me to go there. I dont want someone to beg me to go somewhere, I like putting up a fight. I like a challenge. At Michigan, I'm going to be challenged. I want to be able to keep my options open when I'm older. I can do that with Michigan. With Michigan, I feel like I can do anything. State is the school that I'm gonna visit on the weekends when I wanna get really wasted with all of my friends from high school. Michigan is where I'm going to make new friends. So let me.
And WHY WHY WHY if I want to teach now am I stuck with teaching? Thats not all that I want to do! Have I ever, in my entire life, only wanted one thing? NO NO NO. I've always wanted as much as I could get my hands on, and then some ((hello, take a look at the boy situation that is constantly in my life.)) I dont want to be limited. I cant be limited. I've never experienced that, and I know I'm supposed to try new things, but that is NOT one of the things that I want to try.
I just cant handle choosing a college. Choosing a major. Choosing a life. I want more than one, please, if its not too much trouble.
I cant pick a college.
I cant pick a major, or a career.
I'm not ready to choose what I want to do for the rest of my life.
And what happens if I don't want to do ONE thing for the rest of my life? What if I want to do many things?
I want to teach. I want to do something with psychology. I want to translate and write for a magazine and make movies and write books and plan weddings and be a novel editor and do everything that makes me happy and when I stop being happy I want to have the option of CHANGING MY MIND.
And theres no major for the indecisive. But I can't choose. I'm not ready to.
"You're going to U of M? Wow thats incredible, its such a great school. What are you going to be?"
..."Well right now I'm looking into teaching"
"You're going to U of M to TEACH?, man you're going to have so many loans to pay off, and teaching just isnt going to cut it. and U of M isnt a school for teaching, for that you want to look into State or Central."
Yea? Well I dont want to go there. I want to go to U of M. I like it best, I can see myself there. Its the best school this state has to offer, and one of the best this country has to offer. The best of the best attend Michigan. I want to be a part of that. I loved it there. I loved the atmosphere. I loved Ann Arbor. I loved the scenery, it was all so pretty. What I saw of State was not pretty. The effing river that everyone loves so much is brown and gross. I dont want to go there. Central is an effing party school with a bunch of losers. They are begging me to go there. I dont want someone to beg me to go somewhere, I like putting up a fight. I like a challenge. At Michigan, I'm going to be challenged. I want to be able to keep my options open when I'm older. I can do that with Michigan. With Michigan, I feel like I can do anything. State is the school that I'm gonna visit on the weekends when I wanna get really wasted with all of my friends from high school. Michigan is where I'm going to make new friends. So let me.
And WHY WHY WHY if I want to teach now am I stuck with teaching? Thats not all that I want to do! Have I ever, in my entire life, only wanted one thing? NO NO NO. I've always wanted as much as I could get my hands on, and then some ((hello, take a look at the boy situation that is constantly in my life.)) I dont want to be limited. I cant be limited. I've never experienced that, and I know I'm supposed to try new things, but that is NOT one of the things that I want to try.
I just cant handle choosing a college. Choosing a major. Choosing a life. I want more than one, please, if its not too much trouble.