* i JuSt wiSh thAt yOu weRe HeRe . .

[ox0_shawna_0xo]

So. where to start. ive been putting off writing about my birthday weekend because theres a lot to say. but now i have something to say i cant put off. July 2nd Matt Ballard, a friend from Morehead surprised me for my birthday. He was staying till the 5th. You know how things go and we had a few little arguments but pretty much it was a good weekend. not to say i wouldnt change things. but now theres nothing that can be done because last night he was killed in an accident on his motorcycle. After everything thats been going on around me, others passing away that i wasnt close to or didnt even know, ive been thinking about what i would do if it were someone i WAS close to. then on my way home from my soccer game i get a phone call from one of my roomates for next semester. it was just like. what? so surreal. i guess i kept telling myself that until i read it or something it didnt happen. then i did. on our school's website and lexington news website. its just not fair. he was 21 - so much left to do . . graduate, get married, have kids. thankfully i bought a flight today into cincy for tomorrow, so i can be there for the services. today i got so sad. because i looked at his myspace and i saw his favorite book was the 5 people you meet in heaven, and i was like wow thats kind of ironic. sooo later me and jen go to blockbuster to get some movies and shes like you can pick one and i look up and see that title. and i was like well thats the one. so it was absolutely the saddest movie ive ever seen in my life. ergh. i guess im rambling. i just need to get some of this shit out. i dont know. It was like - we only hung out for a short time at the end of school but we got along great, and would have been great friends.

There's a fresh page on the calendar,
A start to a new year,
Twelve months to look forward to,
I just wish that you were here.

Rest In Peace Matt Ballard . .
You'll Be Missed