even cancer must follow this golden rule
so since ive moved things have changed so much... things don't really sway towards the bad or the good... things are pretty much exactly the same... my friends have changed, not the number, thats why its not bad or good... i mean i went from bpoe and annie, to young ho and saad... but why can't i really have both, i miss my old friends... i miss how life used to be... things with crystal and i have changed too... she comes to visit me now, instead of vis versa... if i still lived up there, would things be like they used to, would they be better, or would today have happened long before now... i miss her, i miss how carefree life used to be with her... i miss my family, i have a new one now... seth and tina compose my new family... and i love them, tina's a great person, nice, and caring, and seths just a big ball of fur and meows... but their all ive got here... this is why things haven't really been bad or goo... but i miss what i used to have, how things used to be, the ways things used to go... i barely hear from my past anymore... familys a here and there, and anthony and poe are even less... crystal and i just aren't the same... i wish it were, i wish she was happy, i wish we had things to fill her head, conversations to fill her mouth, and love to fill her soul... but i don't think she really believes that stuff anymore... id give her all i could, but im not sure itd ever be enough anymore... i love atlanta, and i love living here... i just wish it was kennesaw sometimes... i sit on my roof when no ones looking and i dream of being at home, or having one of my own... one with everyone i love and miss... things would be so great... sunny days...