it makes me sick

[ownstateofmind]

- it makes me sick just listenin to you talk about being belimic again.
- it makes me want to puke. ha.
- i have no respect for you if you put yourself through this.
- but i dont know how to stop you.
- and you could careless if you die from this.
- and thats rediculous
-just dont.
-its not worth it.

- i just dont get it.

and it just makes me sick to my stomach.

ugghh...

or.. it could just be a cry of attention just like you killing yourself and dropping out of school.

who knows.
ugghh.. but i dont need this right now.
and i sure as hell can't handle it.
i have my own problems. but i put them aside for my friends.

which i find not gettin in return.
which always brings me back to asking myself..
am i too good of a friend.

to these ppl. that take advantage of me.
who take me as fool.
who hurt me soo much.

but idk.

ugghh.. im so confused.. i dont know what to think anymore.
and this whole thing with boys isnt helping much either.
but i dont care about that right now.
psh.. who needs em' thats all i have to say.
ahhah. who am i kidding.

Ok im out.

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