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So i have just had the worst week of my life at work, and i think its going to carry on until next week aswell. I just worked 6 days in a row including 12 hours saturday/saturday night and today (sunday) 9 till 3. The whole week has involved alot and alot and alot of crying from me and talks with managers and a lot of reassurance that everythign is going to be ok. But i cant help but not believe them, as nothing i've been told before has ever been true.
I am so sick of being in charge of people who are either the saem age or a couple of years older then me, and because of this fact getting absolutely no respect and not being listened to. They seem to think that when i tell them to do something that i'm asking them and that they have the right to argue and talk back and not do it. THEY FUCKING DONT. This is the exact reason i was so unsure of taking the team leader position in the first place because they all think its a joke. Yesterday i told someone they couldnt have coke in the reserve and they just imitated how i said it saying "you cant have jellybeans in the reserve, Kasey." its like ok well that the last time i'll be nice and bring in lollies you stupid fuck. Its just stupid how, if i'm not there, nobody does anything the place just turns into a fucking tip. OR same girl that imitated me on saturday, i came back from my lunch break and her and another girl were talking to eachother and were leaning all over the racks. and i was like "UHUH CAUGHT YOU AGAIN go and do something! approach customers, size things!! Dont just talk and lean on racks you know you arent allowed to do that!!!' And the reply i got was I WASNT LEANING ON THE RACK I WAS PUTTING SOMETHING ON THE COATHANGER..... What a load of shit.
So i think from now on, i'm just going to have to be a cow. I dont know what else to do, I need to stop letting everything get to me becuase on tuesday months and months and months of stress and frustration caused me just to go to breaking point, and i've been crying and crying ever since. Not to mention the terrible stress/tension headache it gave me that wont go away no matter how many nurafan plus' i take, and its left me not being able to read harry potter or listen to the new kisschasy cd becuase of it. Not to mention i've hardly been on the net becuase the bright screen, even now is killing me.
And everyone is telling me to stop stressing, and just not to take everything to heart etc etc, thats just the way i am though, i cant help it. It's not as though i chooose to lay wide awake pretty much every night unable to sleep becuase my mind wont switch off thinking about work, no matter how hard i try to sleep.
Just to make me more stressed aswell, now that the miss shop has moved upstairs, when our new racks arrive next week and everything is set up, and then there is a product knowledge night about the youth enviroments in the city. After that, the store manager doesnt want miss shop and jeans plus to be seperate anymore, he wants all the staff to merge together, with me and team leader as both. So now i have to learn a fuck load more product knowledge and shit about guys clothes and allthe girls working in the guys section have to learn about the girls and work in there etc. and they dont want to and i dont want to have to be in charge of more people when the ones i am in charge of now who are supposed to be my close friends, dont listen or respect me at all now.
Ugh.
I am so sick of being in charge of people who are either the saem age or a couple of years older then me, and because of this fact getting absolutely no respect and not being listened to. They seem to think that when i tell them to do something that i'm asking them and that they have the right to argue and talk back and not do it. THEY FUCKING DONT. This is the exact reason i was so unsure of taking the team leader position in the first place because they all think its a joke. Yesterday i told someone they couldnt have coke in the reserve and they just imitated how i said it saying "you cant have jellybeans in the reserve, Kasey." its like ok well that the last time i'll be nice and bring in lollies you stupid fuck. Its just stupid how, if i'm not there, nobody does anything the place just turns into a fucking tip. OR same girl that imitated me on saturday, i came back from my lunch break and her and another girl were talking to eachother and were leaning all over the racks. and i was like "UHUH CAUGHT YOU AGAIN go and do something! approach customers, size things!! Dont just talk and lean on racks you know you arent allowed to do that!!!' And the reply i got was I WASNT LEANING ON THE RACK I WAS PUTTING SOMETHING ON THE COATHANGER..... What a load of shit.
So i think from now on, i'm just going to have to be a cow. I dont know what else to do, I need to stop letting everything get to me becuase on tuesday months and months and months of stress and frustration caused me just to go to breaking point, and i've been crying and crying ever since. Not to mention the terrible stress/tension headache it gave me that wont go away no matter how many nurafan plus' i take, and its left me not being able to read harry potter or listen to the new kisschasy cd becuase of it. Not to mention i've hardly been on the net becuase the bright screen, even now is killing me.
And everyone is telling me to stop stressing, and just not to take everything to heart etc etc, thats just the way i am though, i cant help it. It's not as though i chooose to lay wide awake pretty much every night unable to sleep becuase my mind wont switch off thinking about work, no matter how hard i try to sleep.
Just to make me more stressed aswell, now that the miss shop has moved upstairs, when our new racks arrive next week and everything is set up, and then there is a product knowledge night about the youth enviroments in the city. After that, the store manager doesnt want miss shop and jeans plus to be seperate anymore, he wants all the staff to merge together, with me and team leader as both. So now i have to learn a fuck load more product knowledge and shit about guys clothes and allthe girls working in the guys section have to learn about the girls and work in there etc. and they dont want to and i dont want to have to be in charge of more people when the ones i am in charge of now who are supposed to be my close friends, dont listen or respect me at all now.
Ugh.