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I don't wanna lose you,
I don't wanna use you
just to have somebody by my side
And I don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna take you
But I don't wanna be the one to cry
That don't really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Now I could never change you
I don't wanna blame you
Baby you don't have to take the fall
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just wanna have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change
[chorus]
And there's no way home
when it's late at night and you're all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
there beside you where I used to lay
And there's a Danger in Loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
~*~* Don Henley
Everyone lately has been telling me to not hang out with Tim anymore. And I know what I have to do but at the same time doing it is so hard. Their are so many good qualities about him that you often don't hear lately I have been frustrated with him but that's a normal thing every situation goes through their rough spot. It does hurt that he doesn't want to be with me, but not having him in my life may hurt more. I don't know what it's like to not have him there. He's been a consistant thing for me, and when my life lacks consistancy at times I cling on to him. I know that Peter only wants the best for me and I can understand he doesn't like hearing about the ex, so i'll respect him and not talk about Tim. I appreciate Doug so much for offering to watch the oc with me, because that's a thing that tim and I share that's important to me, and if I were to lose tim that would be the toughest moment to get through. I'm not sure if i'm ready to leave him though. Maybe i'm too optimistic. I mean last night he surprized me, I was asking him if he ever got sick of us, and he said the only part s he gets sick of is the fighting. I often didn't think he noticed that we do fight, so the fact that he noticed it and is sick of it shows hope, and the fact that he voiced it. A few months ago I mentioned a cd I wanted but I don't think he was really paying attention to me and had forgotton that I wanted it well he said last night that he was making a copy of it for me. The fact that he remembered something so minute and actually pays attention to me made me melt. I think I need to back off though on the hanging out EVERY week, and the phone calls EVERY night. We need time apart to really appreciate each other.
Other then that i've had a wicked good day. I let someone borrow my cell phone today for 5 minutes because they broke down they gave me $10 for being so nice. So HA chris and everyone that used to yell at me for my niceness I get much better rewards by being nice then you do by being a self loathing asshole. THen I went to school and I got an A+ on my presentation, and then I went to work and the cutest thing ever happened to me, I went rollerskating and I coudln't remember how to skate so I fell on my ass, well this little kindergarnder katilin came over and helped me up she took my hand and skated with me . she was so cute. WEll I must go do my test ttyl.
<3 Amanda
I don't wanna use you
just to have somebody by my side
And I don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna take you
But I don't wanna be the one to cry
That don't really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Now I could never change you
I don't wanna blame you
Baby you don't have to take the fall
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just wanna have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change
[chorus]
And there's no way home
when it's late at night and you're all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
there beside you where I used to lay
And there's a Danger in Loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
~*~* Don Henley
Everyone lately has been telling me to not hang out with Tim anymore. And I know what I have to do but at the same time doing it is so hard. Their are so many good qualities about him that you often don't hear lately I have been frustrated with him but that's a normal thing every situation goes through their rough spot. It does hurt that he doesn't want to be with me, but not having him in my life may hurt more. I don't know what it's like to not have him there. He's been a consistant thing for me, and when my life lacks consistancy at times I cling on to him. I know that Peter only wants the best for me and I can understand he doesn't like hearing about the ex, so i'll respect him and not talk about Tim. I appreciate Doug so much for offering to watch the oc with me, because that's a thing that tim and I share that's important to me, and if I were to lose tim that would be the toughest moment to get through. I'm not sure if i'm ready to leave him though. Maybe i'm too optimistic. I mean last night he surprized me, I was asking him if he ever got sick of us, and he said the only part s he gets sick of is the fighting. I often didn't think he noticed that we do fight, so the fact that he noticed it and is sick of it shows hope, and the fact that he voiced it. A few months ago I mentioned a cd I wanted but I don't think he was really paying attention to me and had forgotton that I wanted it well he said last night that he was making a copy of it for me. The fact that he remembered something so minute and actually pays attention to me made me melt. I think I need to back off though on the hanging out EVERY week, and the phone calls EVERY night. We need time apart to really appreciate each other.
Other then that i've had a wicked good day. I let someone borrow my cell phone today for 5 minutes because they broke down they gave me $10 for being so nice. So HA chris and everyone that used to yell at me for my niceness I get much better rewards by being nice then you do by being a self loathing asshole. THen I went to school and I got an A+ on my presentation, and then I went to work and the cutest thing ever happened to me, I went rollerskating and I coudln't remember how to skate so I fell on my ass, well this little kindergarnder katilin came over and helped me up she took my hand and skated with me . she was so cute. WEll I must go do my test ttyl.
<3 Amanda