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Hmm, this will probably be a long entry babbling about guys, so If you don't want to read it click off of it.
So Over the summer I had this guy who hard core wanted me, you may remember him from previouse entries he was Holla at me BOY. Well in this particular chasing i was the stereotypical guy and he was the woman. It went on for months where he'd try to make plans or text message me everyday and i'd be pretty aloof as to what I was doing. We hung out once and after that he was really touchy feely so I backed off on things. He was a nice enough guy but nothing there. Well he finally got the hint, and stopped texting me. I notice that now I find myself wondering what he's doing and stuff. I still dont' want a relationship with him, but I got used to depending on him being there. He was my self esteem booster this summer when I needed it. It's like I don't want him but I want him to want me. How awful is that.
I've been pretty unfair to tim lately. To the point where it's upsetting me. When I had my first date with doug, I swore off dating other guys for awhile. I just didn't want anything to do with them. So tim being the main person I was seeing got pushed aside. I mean I still talked to him everyday. I just refused to see him. And then I realized that maybe things wouldn't take off with doug and that I hardly knew the kid so I started dating guys again. And started seeing tim again, but now i'm feeling wishy washy. I feel that tim and I need to just say enough is enough. We can never have anything substanial, as my Family will kill him. So maybe seeing him is pointless, but I hate to do that to him again. I want new boys though, I've had it with ex's. They're ex's for a reason. So I'm at least swearing off ex's.
Funny exchange that happened between this kid scott and I. Now background info on how I met him... I um hit his truck at ccri with my stellar parking skills. We met up and talked before class one day and he's a nice kids. HARD WORKER. Well he hadn't called for awhile but called last night. So I was saying how i'm a nice person unlike some people, and he's like oh i'm nice... Prove it I replied so I thought he said what, and I was like you have to think of a way.. and mr cocky goes I said when b/c I have the how covered. I was like awwwwwwwwwwwww. So we may be hanging out sometime soon. When his and my schedule works out for us which looks to be like saturday or sundays.
Two nights ago rissa called, me asking me to get smashed and watch the election with her. I was game b/c I don't see her enough. I told her their were conditiosn though and that was we had to join up with clay and his girl to do 10 cent wing night at caseys. Well I also invited doug, who came with his friend. Doug um offended clays girlfriend a little b/c she's for bush he's for kerry. It was highly entertaining though. So Dougs friend had to leave for work and clay and angela went home after cases, but rissa the super cool chick that she is invited doug to watch the election with us and to sleep over. She even gave up her bed so I could sleep with him. Joygasm now this is why I love the girl. Anyone that knows me knows I love sleeping with guys, and that If i can fall asleep on you i'm completely comfortable. Oh it was amazing I hadn't slept with a guy like that Since April with chris. Although chris definatly got woken up differantly by me. He's wrestling in vermont on saturday, and rissa and I are going to go watch him. It's like all the way up by canada though. Everytime he opens his mouth, I'm just impressed by how smart he really is. Awww he just makes me happy, and I hardly know him. And he puts up with my psycho ex manager (who I love to death) starting random rants with him about my father. LoL i love my hortons family they're so protective of me. Well I shall be going b/c I have a full day of work, class, and starbucks with catherine.
Kerry Still has a chance...
<3 Amanda
So Over the summer I had this guy who hard core wanted me, you may remember him from previouse entries he was Holla at me BOY. Well in this particular chasing i was the stereotypical guy and he was the woman. It went on for months where he'd try to make plans or text message me everyday and i'd be pretty aloof as to what I was doing. We hung out once and after that he was really touchy feely so I backed off on things. He was a nice enough guy but nothing there. Well he finally got the hint, and stopped texting me. I notice that now I find myself wondering what he's doing and stuff. I still dont' want a relationship with him, but I got used to depending on him being there. He was my self esteem booster this summer when I needed it. It's like I don't want him but I want him to want me. How awful is that.
I've been pretty unfair to tim lately. To the point where it's upsetting me. When I had my first date with doug, I swore off dating other guys for awhile. I just didn't want anything to do with them. So tim being the main person I was seeing got pushed aside. I mean I still talked to him everyday. I just refused to see him. And then I realized that maybe things wouldn't take off with doug and that I hardly knew the kid so I started dating guys again. And started seeing tim again, but now i'm feeling wishy washy. I feel that tim and I need to just say enough is enough. We can never have anything substanial, as my Family will kill him. So maybe seeing him is pointless, but I hate to do that to him again. I want new boys though, I've had it with ex's. They're ex's for a reason. So I'm at least swearing off ex's.
Funny exchange that happened between this kid scott and I. Now background info on how I met him... I um hit his truck at ccri with my stellar parking skills. We met up and talked before class one day and he's a nice kids. HARD WORKER. Well he hadn't called for awhile but called last night. So I was saying how i'm a nice person unlike some people, and he's like oh i'm nice... Prove it I replied so I thought he said what, and I was like you have to think of a way.. and mr cocky goes I said when b/c I have the how covered. I was like awwwwwwwwwwwww. So we may be hanging out sometime soon. When his and my schedule works out for us which looks to be like saturday or sundays.
Two nights ago rissa called, me asking me to get smashed and watch the election with her. I was game b/c I don't see her enough. I told her their were conditiosn though and that was we had to join up with clay and his girl to do 10 cent wing night at caseys. Well I also invited doug, who came with his friend. Doug um offended clays girlfriend a little b/c she's for bush he's for kerry. It was highly entertaining though. So Dougs friend had to leave for work and clay and angela went home after cases, but rissa the super cool chick that she is invited doug to watch the election with us and to sleep over. She even gave up her bed so I could sleep with him. Joygasm now this is why I love the girl. Anyone that knows me knows I love sleeping with guys, and that If i can fall asleep on you i'm completely comfortable. Oh it was amazing I hadn't slept with a guy like that Since April with chris. Although chris definatly got woken up differantly by me. He's wrestling in vermont on saturday, and rissa and I are going to go watch him. It's like all the way up by canada though. Everytime he opens his mouth, I'm just impressed by how smart he really is. Awww he just makes me happy, and I hardly know him. And he puts up with my psycho ex manager (who I love to death) starting random rants with him about my father. LoL i love my hortons family they're so protective of me. Well I shall be going b/c I have a full day of work, class, and starbucks with catherine.
Kerry Still has a chance...
<3 Amanda