.14 [Wednesday//Afterschool//January 2nd]
I hope everyone is having a good New Year so far. I hope we can all strive for a better future. As S.E.E.S. members it's sort of our job anyways. I want to be helpful and make a world where people can be happy. So with that said, I'm happy to reveal the following.
I'm sure none of you knew but... I was going to be leaving soon-- back to the states-- with my dad. It's a long story that, if you'd like to know, just ask. At the beginning of last month I sent my dad a letter asking if, somehow, someway, I could stay here in Japan. This is my home, not America. This is the response I got.
Son,
I'm sorry that this is how you feel. I hoped so desperately that we could start a new life together as a family. America really is a great place for new opportunities. I wish you could see the life we'd have there. We'd be happy. I hope this decision is not about your mother...
Her death was sudden... I know that. The pain I felt upon discovering the tragic news was immense. Like 1000 needles piercing my heart. I know you used to think that we didn't love each other, but we did. I guess I just made bad choices in life. Bad choices that hurt the people I loved. I would never imagine you forgiving me for being absent during your life. I was a terrible father; the worst. All those times I sent those letters... I never expected a reply, but I just wanted you to know that I was always thinking about you and your mother.
As your father, I can only have pride for the things you accomplish. I'm hurt by your decision to stay back, but I know that you have your reasons. I wish you the best of luck in everything you do. I see great things in your future. I really do.
I'll be leaving soon. My flight is on the 7th. Perhaps I could stop by your school or dorm? I want to see you one last time. Plus, there's something that you need to know.
Love,
Dad
In other news, I heard another student left. Shinkawa Mai I believe. I didn't know her personally but I've seen her around. I wonder why she decided to leave? Could it have been because of those people?
I'm sure none of you knew but... I was going to be leaving soon-- back to the states-- with my dad. It's a long story that, if you'd like to know, just ask. At the beginning of last month I sent my dad a letter asking if, somehow, someway, I could stay here in Japan. This is my home, not America. This is the response I got.
Son,
I'm sorry that this is how you feel. I hoped so desperately that we could start a new life together as a family. America really is a great place for new opportunities. I wish you could see the life we'd have there. We'd be happy. I hope this decision is not about your mother...
Her death was sudden... I know that. The pain I felt upon discovering the tragic news was immense. Like 1000 needles piercing my heart. I know you used to think that we didn't love each other, but we did. I guess I just made bad choices in life. Bad choices that hurt the people I loved. I would never imagine you forgiving me for being absent during your life. I was a terrible father; the worst. All those times I sent those letters... I never expected a reply, but I just wanted you to know that I was always thinking about you and your mother.
As your father, I can only have pride for the things you accomplish. I'm hurt by your decision to stay back, but I know that you have your reasons. I wish you the best of luck in everything you do. I see great things in your future. I really do.
I'll be leaving soon. My flight is on the 7th. Perhaps I could stop by your school or dorm? I want to see you one last time. Plus, there's something that you need to know.
Love,
Dad
In other news, I heard another student left. Shinkawa Mai I believe. I didn't know her personally but I've seen her around. I wonder why she decided to leave? Could it have been because of those people?