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im not sure where to start so ill just lay down the basics... so im totally falling for this girl like every time i see her she just melts my heart i wake up before work just hoping that i get the chance to see her there shes starting to be the first and last person i think about everyday and the sad thing is that im sure she has no idea that i feel that way about her and whats even worse is that she probably doesnt even feel the same way but anyways so i told one of my best friends about how i feel about her and so of course he told me that i should let her now by certain things that i do and blah blah blah and not just tell her straight out so i started to show her that im interested but not interested like i just wanna fuck her interested like i wanna relationship with her and then me and her are at lunch today and i was trying to help her fix her phone because it doesnt allow her to receive or send text and i see this text from my "homie" and it says "goodnight...i think your really pretty" and it pissed me off because it was like the day after that i told him im basically falling for this girl and hes saying shit to her like that? i dunno if im being irrational about this situation and i do understand that shes not my girl friend but my friend is known to hit on every girl that seems to be taken so im like dude wtf? you tell me that i should go for it and try to make something hapen and then you go and say shit to her trying to get her to like him and shit and i know this mohterfucker is just trying to fuck her o and by the way shes a virgin and i know he thinks hes a pimp and wants to take every girls virginity so yeah i kinda feel betrayed/depressed/a bunch of emotions i dunno im fuckin frustrated because i just wanna grab her and be like dude you make my heart melt you make my bad days good just because i got to spend part of my day with you i just wanna hold her and i cant do that! it fuckin sux!...........................................................................................................FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im pissing myself off by writing this shit..............