"I've done things that i'm not proud of..."

[overxlooked]

"I've lost all respect for myself, And I've lived through nights I hoped would be my last.
Trust me you don't want to know whats behind these eyes, so turn your head away"

Two words. Fucking Depressed.

I don't want to need someone. I really don't. I don't want to need someone to help me be happy. I don't like this feeling of need. I want all my stress to go away. I actually feel like I'm going to fucking break. For once in my life I feel like i'm going to break down for real. I need a release from work. I don't want to go back to Texas right now because I'm afraid its going to make things worse on me. (Not because of you, because of other people).

I lost my place. The one town I used to think would save me from all this shit. The one place I thought I had where people cared about me. Its fucking dead. Its all fucking dead to me. And there's a small piece of me that died tonight because of it.

So where's my person to turn to?
the person to help me through?
the person I don't want to need, but I want to have?

I should sleep. But I'm afraid my sleep won't be good for a few more nights.

"We're all fucked, So fuck it all"