eh

[overtoastedbob]

well college is pretty confusing. not just the chemistry, but the environment. i just dont know what to do. in high school i didnt really have any guy friends. i would say hi to them, but never hang out with them, or eat with them. now, in college, i feel like im surrounded by guys. i hang out with them more. but i dont know them all very well yet. its just weird. im not used to it at all. and i guess at home, i didnt confide in a lot of people in the first place, but now, in college when i dont know people on a level that i can tell them things that are truly personal. it kind of makes me sad. that all of these conversations im having are only the surface. i want to dig deep into someone. find out what they are made of, what they are all about. i want to tell them what im made of, and what im all about. tell them my troubles, fear, doubts, successes, and i want them to feel the same, or understanding, and provide some wisdom. also my S.T.S. class is a really awesome class, its science technology and society. it brings up a lot of good questions and issues. like poverty, hunger, pollution, resource depletion, and things of that nature...but i just dont know what to do about all of this. i guess im sort of pessimistic, that me, one person cant do anything about it. if we feed those that are malnurished, they will get healthy, and have more children that they cannot take care of, who will need to be fed. it just perpetuates the hunger. so, should these people have to die to stop world hunger?, to stop the population explosion?
ahhhhh....
im such a loser. college is silly. im coming home the 6th and 7th we have fall break.

its really nice outside.