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I absolutely love the Christmas season. I enjoy looking at the holiday decorations, the lights are always so pretty. I like to jam to Christmas music. It always seems to lift my spirits. I like the smell of homemade cookies and pies. One thing I am missing out on here is the snow. I love the snow. It is by far one of the most beautiful things to look at. I miss looking out my window and gazing upon a huge white blanket of it covering the ground as far as I can see. It’s always so breath taking. And magical.
I hate the fact that I am fat. Ok.. maybe not FAT.. but chubby. Instead of being lazy and complaining about it, I am actually going to do something for once. I need to start going back to the gym. I didn’t feel like such a heifer then. But until then, I will work out in our little exercise room. I have a goal to lose 10 pounds before I go to Ohio for Christmas break. I am determined. And damnit, I am going to do it.
I also hate the fact that I procrastinate about things that are very important to my future. I need to stop putting off scheduling a day to take my ACTS and SATS. Those are things that I must do. I also need to quit avoiding writing my essays I have to do to leave Alternative School. I have to do them.
I miss him a little bit today. Not enough to want to be with him, but enough for it to hurt.
I messed up my stomach somehow. Well.. I don’t really know if I did it, but it’s messed up. The area around my scars from my surgery hurts like you wouldn’t freakin’ believe. I came home early yesterday and went to the doctor. She pressed on it until I was in tears. She gave me a prescription for Darvocets. So now I am feeling pretty good. I stayed home from school today and slept in. That was pretty nice.
Lately I have been addicted to the internet. That is a habit I would like to break.
My brother may be moving back down here with his new girlfriend. That is if my mom lets them stay here until each of them can get a job and a place of their own. I would be so elated if they did come down here. I miss my brother so much.
So I think I am still stuck between a rock and a hard place. I am not really too sure though. I don’t want to go making any rash decisions without thinking them through.
This whole being single thing has its perks. But then again it has its downfalls. Hmm.. who freakin’ knows. Surely not me. Haha.
I hate the fact that I am fat. Ok.. maybe not FAT.. but chubby. Instead of being lazy and complaining about it, I am actually going to do something for once. I need to start going back to the gym. I didn’t feel like such a heifer then. But until then, I will work out in our little exercise room. I have a goal to lose 10 pounds before I go to Ohio for Christmas break. I am determined. And damnit, I am going to do it.
I also hate the fact that I procrastinate about things that are very important to my future. I need to stop putting off scheduling a day to take my ACTS and SATS. Those are things that I must do. I also need to quit avoiding writing my essays I have to do to leave Alternative School. I have to do them.
I miss him a little bit today. Not enough to want to be with him, but enough for it to hurt.
I messed up my stomach somehow. Well.. I don’t really know if I did it, but it’s messed up. The area around my scars from my surgery hurts like you wouldn’t freakin’ believe. I came home early yesterday and went to the doctor. She pressed on it until I was in tears. She gave me a prescription for Darvocets. So now I am feeling pretty good. I stayed home from school today and slept in. That was pretty nice.
Lately I have been addicted to the internet. That is a habit I would like to break.
My brother may be moving back down here with his new girlfriend. That is if my mom lets them stay here until each of them can get a job and a place of their own. I would be so elated if they did come down here. I miss my brother so much.
So I think I am still stuck between a rock and a hard place. I am not really too sure though. I don’t want to go making any rash decisions without thinking them through.
This whole being single thing has its perks. But then again it has its downfalls. Hmm.. who freakin’ knows. Surely not me. Haha.