Sometimes it all feels the same.

[overrrdramatics]

Sometimes it all feels different.
I slept for more hours than I have in months.
My mouth felt sort of like sulfur when I awoke.
And I was craving pumpernickel.
Strange because I don't even like pumpernickel.
I keep staring at the sun in the day time, just to blind myself.
I keep staring at the moon at night time, just to tease myself.
Keep heading the warning but I enjoy the fear so much
That I fear
if I wasn't so terrified of dying I would probably
enjoy speed
and heights.
Not like I'm scared of the fall, I am aware of what the ground feels like.
I am aware of what falling feels like.

Give and take. Push and pull. But really I just want you to take
all
you can.
Suck me right back into you. Weren't those the lyrics? Isn't that what he said?
I think so. I think he was right.

You may never believe me. Or take my advice.
But this afternoon, as I stood over the sink
and you asked me,
like you were undeserving
why I was being such a good girl
I almost broke out in song;

"Since you think I don't love you, I just thought you were cute
That's why I kiss you
Got a fighter jet, I don't get fly it, though"

Sometimes everything is different
And sometimes everything is the same.
But not this.
Not this at all.