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never realy had a use for this thing, for a long time, not suposed to be a journal reserved for when your sad, but for some reason thats the only time i feel like it has a ude, need tto get thoughts out with some confermation that posibly someone will se, like your alowing your feelings to be known without having to come straight out and complain outright to peopel, ive blown things out of proportion in the past
thougt friendships were over when they wernt, read into things to much, ddoing it again,
went home, got happy, saw babykins, came back happy, echarged since the last week i had become mopey and antisocial again, ready to be happier again this time, met new riend, whos olf friiends have also abandond her,
happy again and in one night a few acts of confermation mae it all go away, being nce because they have to be nice
know improbly wrong and even if im right you wouldnt admit it, youd act so oblivious like before, so many voices i think im hearing behind me
on the phone "my roomate? no she cant hear me, when shes on the computer she zomes out, but with my luck she proobly can hear me on the phone. hey sarah? yah thats what i thought"
why dnt i confront peole, doesnt matter
yu find who your eal frineds are
dnt think mmy closest friends realy ever were, there friend was a camera to idolize them,
now that i talk, now that immore than a lense, im not the friend i was.
one friends the one i never knew that well before, one friends the friend who has goten more shit than they eserved aaswell.
whine
bitch
havnt done that in a long time
am now
peole might act like they care,
i wana go home
i want babykins
makes me happy again
dnt like being sad
makes them comeback
i dnt like it when they are here
them, those ones
the ones i shouldnt talk about,
maybe they rnt there
maybe im wrong about everything
even myself
should paint more
makes me happy
dnt do it enough on my own
make picture for nice friend
yes will do that
o well, im sory for what ive been without film,
bye
thougt friendships were over when they wernt, read into things to much, ddoing it again,
went home, got happy, saw babykins, came back happy, echarged since the last week i had become mopey and antisocial again, ready to be happier again this time, met new riend, whos olf friiends have also abandond her,
happy again and in one night a few acts of confermation mae it all go away, being nce because they have to be nice
know improbly wrong and even if im right you wouldnt admit it, youd act so oblivious like before, so many voices i think im hearing behind me
on the phone "my roomate? no she cant hear me, when shes on the computer she zomes out, but with my luck she proobly can hear me on the phone. hey sarah? yah thats what i thought"
why dnt i confront peole, doesnt matter
yu find who your eal frineds are
dnt think mmy closest friends realy ever were, there friend was a camera to idolize them,
now that i talk, now that immore than a lense, im not the friend i was.
one friends the one i never knew that well before, one friends the friend who has goten more shit than they eserved aaswell.
whine
bitch
havnt done that in a long time
am now
peole might act like they care,
i wana go home
i want babykins
makes me happy again
dnt like being sad
makes them comeback
i dnt like it when they are here
them, those ones
the ones i shouldnt talk about,
maybe they rnt there
maybe im wrong about everything
even myself
should paint more
makes me happy
dnt do it enough on my own
make picture for nice friend
yes will do that
o well, im sory for what ive been without film,
bye