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i keep telling myself i need to stop being such a cry baby, and stop complaing so much on here, but ive made 10 posts in a row with no comments which impplys no one reads anyway, so i can whine all i want
i feel so fkn alone right now, and i dnt think its anyone perpously tryng to push me away, its like fate itself is working against me to make shur i have no one around, and to make shur i feel as lonely as posible. i dnt know how much longer i can take it.
i felt bad today, i was realy realy upset so i went by kennys even though i know hes super sick, i just had to see him, he always makes me feel better, even if im just around him, but he was still feeling terible, and the only thing i accomplishd was having his mom wake him up when he proboobly needed to keep sleeping. im going to bust soon. i dnt want to, but im going to. i kind of wishi wasnt home alone right now, it makes the temptaion alot tougher
i just wish the nightmares could stop atleast, i didnt let myself sleep long enough for them to come back last night but i cant keep doing that...
something good has tohapen soon, it has to. maybe im suposed to break down again. maybe i should...but i know i shouldnt
i feel so fkn alone right now, and i dnt think its anyone perpously tryng to push me away, its like fate itself is working against me to make shur i have no one around, and to make shur i feel as lonely as posible. i dnt know how much longer i can take it.
i felt bad today, i was realy realy upset so i went by kennys even though i know hes super sick, i just had to see him, he always makes me feel better, even if im just around him, but he was still feeling terible, and the only thing i accomplishd was having his mom wake him up when he proboobly needed to keep sleeping. im going to bust soon. i dnt want to, but im going to. i kind of wishi wasnt home alone right now, it makes the temptaion alot tougher
i just wish the nightmares could stop atleast, i didnt let myself sleep long enough for them to come back last night but i cant keep doing that...
something good has tohapen soon, it has to. maybe im suposed to break down again. maybe i should...but i know i shouldnt