Dream § 002 § "The manifold duties of a Shinigami"

[overlysymmetric]

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[fearless_tech]

Kid-kun... *pauses* Are you alright?

[overlysymmetric]

Ah... yes. Thank you. *doesn't sound completely alright, but* I could have sworn...

In any case, it appears the filters are still not operational.

[fearless_tech]

Mm. I think I was around the same age when... *tries to make him feel better but isn't sure if she's succeeding* Could've sworn what?

I guess not. Are you sure they're set?

[overlysymmetric]

Yes. It's... not the best thing to have to relive, really. I have no problem with doing these things now, but for a child... That I set the filters. Clearly, it failed again.

I was, but... perhaps I pressed the wrong button? *sigh*

[fearless_tech]

It's a scary experience, the first time. But it gets easier... I remember Mama saying that to me once. Ah, I see.

Maybe... you seemed pretty sure of it working at first, though.

[overlysymmetric]

I know... And it is necessary, for the good of everyone. People like that must be judged. But that doesn't mean one has to enjoy it...

I do try to do everything perfectly. ...The filters seem to be thwarting my intentions a lot, however.

[fearless_tech]

Judged... *thinks of Chrona for a split second* ...Yeah. You're right.

I'll try messing with it later, and see if I get any results.

[overlysymmetric]

*sudden awkwardness, accompanied by a long pause* I... never really expected anyone to see one of those dreams. I suppose that's one of the downsides of this world.

Yes... with enough trial and error, it should work.

[fearless_tech]

I probably shouldn't have said anything, then. It was private.

I'll let you know if I figure it out.

[overlysymmetric]

No, it's alright. It's not bad having someone to share it with, exactly, considering that... we've both been through something like this. And they say talking about it helps...

[fearless_tech]

That's true. Some things are better kept private, but sharing with someone can help the burden.

I remember wanting to be a strong scythe technician just like my mama, even back then...

[overlysymmetric]

Yes... Besides, sharing with you isn't the same as having some stranger see it.

Oh? I... don't remember what I wanted to be back then. It seems like a long time ago, now.

[fearless_tech]

Ah, really? I suppose you're right. I didn't really think of it that way.

Mm! I still want to be as good as her one day. I guess it was awhile ago...you never wanted to be an artist, or a doctor, or anything like that, Kid-kun? Even when you were smaller?

[overlysymmetric]

After all, if you can't trust your friends and allies with these things, you can't trust anyone.

I'm sure you will be. What I've seen and heard of your fighting skills is impressive. And... not really, no. I'm a Shinigami. That's what I will be. There's not really room for ambitions or options.

[fearless_tech]

True. I guess if there's anyone here who I'd trust with things like this, it'd be you. We have to work together, after all.

Eh? Oh, thanks. That's encouraging. But no ambitions or options... sounds rather depressing to me, even if you do already know what you're going to be.

[overlysymmetric]

Yes, exactly. As it stands, I'm not sure who else here is entirely trustworthy- but I know that I can trust you, if no one else. And the closer the bonds between people, the easier it is to work together, I've noticed. It certainly works that way with weapons and meisters, at least.

I suppose... I never really thought of it that way. You don't regret being human, I expect, and... the only real difference is that what I am defines what I do as well.