you messed up my mental health
so...i'm on anti-depressants. i'm about 11 days into a course of lexapro. so far, i've only really noticed some side effects (especially drowsiness). i have been in a really light mood, since monday before last. almost giddy, and i don't know how this relates. it's really too soon to expect any sort of real chemical change in my brain, so maybe it's a psychosomatic change in the way i'm approaching my daily bullshit. i just feel less emotionally invested in the little things that used to send me spiraling into a scowling, thrashing fowl mood.
the darker moods, the loneliness and frustration, my real sadness is still there, but i wasn't expecting it to not be, so. and i'm still going to therapy weekly.
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i've also been consuming a gross amount of sugar in recent days, including probably a full gallon of chocolate milk. is there anything more amazing than chocolate milk? cause i don't think there is. maybe, like, sexy chocolate milk. or more chocolate milk. yeah.
notes to self: write your brother, review the mac & cheese recipe, send ryranross home - it's been long enough
i have a job interview on thursday for a new part time. send me your well wishes, pls.
the darker moods, the loneliness and frustration, my real sadness is still there, but i wasn't expecting it to not be, so. and i'm still going to therapy weekly.
~
i've also been consuming a gross amount of sugar in recent days, including probably a full gallon of chocolate milk. is there anything more amazing than chocolate milk? cause i don't think there is. maybe, like, sexy chocolate milk. or more chocolate milk. yeah.
notes to self: write your brother, review the mac & cheese recipe, send ryranross home - it's been long enough
i have a job interview on thursday for a new part time. send me your well wishes, pls.