help me, help me

Sep 01, 2008 02:28

Well friends, I'm tried of driving. I'm also tired of working and not living in my apartment that I pay to live in...

Current song is help me by alkaline trio, current mood is a sort of tired contentedness. I've been bouncing back and forth a bit between being pretty upset with everything and just not caring about anything at all. Lately I've noticed the lack of people I have to talk to. I remember having close friends, but it seems they have all gone away one by one. I still have aaron of course, but there are always things I can't talk to him about, or maybe don't want to. I'm not that close with my sister that I talk to her about anything real, plus she lives a ways away now and is pretty busy all the time. So I guess the point I'm making is that I miss having a close girl friend, or at least one that will pretend to listen to me.

If there is one thing that I hate more than anything else right now it's that I always feel like I need people more than they need me. Like no one really cares at all. I'm afraid to show how much I might care about someone because it might drive them away. And that seems ridiculous to me, but I can only control how I act.

On the bright side, labor day means both of my online classes don't meet, which seems kind of weird, but there it is. So at least I'm not behind in my classes...yet.

Help me, help me, somebody help me. Save me from myself. Take me from this hell.
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