Krystal, sometimes we have to let go of worrying about others when they're going down the wrong path and really concentrate on ourselves. It can be hard when it's someone we care about, but the age you're in is a time of change and transition. Every single one of those people (and you) will change several more times as you go into adulthood. Sometimes this causes a shift in friendships and periods of being alone, but those are times where you're a stronger person for staying true to yourself and what you believe in. Remember what's important to you. And remember that there is absolutely nothing you can do to change someone else or stop what they're doing - nothing. It's human nature to fuck up and fall down then find our own way to get up and walk again. Some people just fall harder I guess.
If it's any consolation, I never tried drugs. Even to this day, I've never smoked so much as a cigarette. I was so crazy back then that most people probably thought I was on drugs LOL, but I wasn't. Most of my friends were on drugs, but I didn't want to be a part of that. I just appreciated what I could with them, and when I couldn't find anything I liked about them anymore, I moved along. Looking back, I can see now that those people who gave in to every influence they crossed paths with were just lacking self-esteem and didn't know who they were. I was confident as hell and I didn't care what people thought of me. I had a few friends who were confident like me, and we all managed to stay out of trouble, even though we surrounded ourselves in it (hanging out with the weedheads, going to concerts in Miami when we lived over an hour away, sneaking into clubs, etc.). The difference is knowing when it's too much. We skipped school sometimes, but our grades didn't suffer. There's a way to experiment without losing yourself.
I think you're very strong, and you know when enough is enough. So keep doing what you're doing. Sorry for my long ass post. You know me, though. ;)
If it's any consolation, I never tried drugs. Even to this day, I've never smoked so much as a cigarette. I was so crazy back then that most people probably thought I was on drugs LOL, but I wasn't. Most of my friends were on drugs, but I didn't want to be a part of that. I just appreciated what I could with them, and when I couldn't find anything I liked about them anymore, I moved along. Looking back, I can see now that those people who gave in to every influence they crossed paths with were just lacking self-esteem and didn't know who they were. I was confident as hell and I didn't care what people thought of me. I had a few friends who were confident like me, and we all managed to stay out of trouble, even though we surrounded ourselves in it (hanging out with the weedheads, going to concerts in Miami when we lived over an hour away, sneaking into clubs, etc.). The difference is knowing when it's too much. We skipped school sometimes, but our grades didn't suffer. There's a way to experiment without losing yourself.
I think you're very strong, and you know when enough is enough. So keep doing what you're doing. Sorry for my long ass post. You know me, though. ;)
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