random thoughts that happen to pertain to SM
So it's 1:44 in the morning and I just finished a conversation on SM.
After 10 years it's still a part of me. My counselor is pretty sure it just takes time to grow out of.
I'm pretty sure it's all about self control. Self control that I don't have. Obviously.
I guess some would see me as ungrateful for where I am in life. But let's remember, even the luckiest of people SI.
It becomes habit forming... it's such a part of me. I've always done it, and I have a strong gut feeling that I always will.
Yeah people worry. I know because I've been told. But worry is ignorance, and they haven't done their homework. SI rarely leads to suicide, and is one of the lesser known factors in suicide.
Guns are used more often. Ropes follow that. Then come drownings.
Cutting is just something they can use to spice up a movie.
But I don't think they realize that it can spark people who went into retirement to come out... seeing the act and feeling the feelings leads to a whole new experience....
When I saw SAW for the first time I thought I was going to be condemned forever for being an SM. I also thought someone was out to get me. Now I realize that it might be me. And that just brings me back to P!nks more famous song, don't let me get me.
I think I'm going to go read. Claire gave me an awesome book to read before she left for Florida.
I feel as though I'm stuck in a rut.
*S
After 10 years it's still a part of me. My counselor is pretty sure it just takes time to grow out of.
I'm pretty sure it's all about self control. Self control that I don't have. Obviously.
I guess some would see me as ungrateful for where I am in life. But let's remember, even the luckiest of people SI.
It becomes habit forming... it's such a part of me. I've always done it, and I have a strong gut feeling that I always will.
Yeah people worry. I know because I've been told. But worry is ignorance, and they haven't done their homework. SI rarely leads to suicide, and is one of the lesser known factors in suicide.
Guns are used more often. Ropes follow that. Then come drownings.
Cutting is just something they can use to spice up a movie.
But I don't think they realize that it can spark people who went into retirement to come out... seeing the act and feeling the feelings leads to a whole new experience....
When I saw SAW for the first time I thought I was going to be condemned forever for being an SM. I also thought someone was out to get me. Now I realize that it might be me. And that just brings me back to P!nks more famous song, don't let me get me.
I think I'm going to go read. Claire gave me an awesome book to read before she left for Florida.
I feel as though I'm stuck in a rut.
*S