a friendship lost
I feel like I'm missing part of me now. I know Annie and I didn't always talk on a daily basis and we didn't always hang out but I thought we had a sort of... unspoken best friendship thing. I feel like I'm missing my sister now. She met some guy a while ago and since then I've barely heard or spoken to her. I read her away message last night and she was talking about how she's gonna move to Arizona to be with her boyfriend, and how family doesn't always matter... and in her away message tonight she thanked mike for being her best friend and said he was the perfect example of a best friend. I left her messages last night to call me when she got a chance or to email me or I would call her tonight. But now I just feel like it's a lost cause.
I must be a terrible friend. I've known her for 13 years and she was the closest thing I had to a best friend, hell, she knows just about everything about me... did I in some way ruin our friendship?
I feel like I just lost my best friend, and she won't even talk to me... it's like I deeply offended her and I haven't spoke to her a lot since I came here.
I thought I felt bad about leaving my dog, and my parents and I was having a hard enough time adjusting to things and now I have to figure this one out too, or she might be gone forever.
I feel so alone right now.... will this pain ever end?
We went through so much together.... how could she just let that go? I love her like she's my sister, and that's big coming from me because I hated my sister for a very long time, so Anne was the only one I had. She helped me through so much and now she doesn't wanna be my friend or something?
I really don't think I can take much more....