Ke$ha - Your Love Is My Drug
I am moving to East Lansing. I have no idea why. It got to a point where I found I didnt have as many reasons to stay as I thought. I could be happy here with Victor, I really could... Its the happiest I have been in years, but I look at the torment he puts himself/me through for the expense of a relationship and I cant keep subjecting myself to that. I keep repeating that statement in my head so it sinks in. Its like because he refuses to break up with his loser, I have to break up with him. Its...just uncomfortable. So I am leaving...And I am going to Chris George's. I am nervous for that too. Not so much that I will dislike him, just that I potentially may get into a situation where I'm sleeping with him or something. I mean not sleeping sex sleeping. Just...sleeping...attachment sleeping. I think he and I both need to be in situations that are not toxic...so I am going to my best to give that to both of us. But I am human...
I moved my stuff to his place already. I go to FL in a week or so. I leave on my birthday. How depressing. 24 on the 24th. I am expecting that like 21, 22, & 23, 24 will be a disappointment. I need to get my shit together.
I miss Eric Kutchey. Its almost equally embarrassing as the fact I miss Jon. I miss everyone. I get too attached.
I moved my stuff to his place already. I go to FL in a week or so. I leave on my birthday. How depressing. 24 on the 24th. I am expecting that like 21, 22, & 23, 24 will be a disappointment. I need to get my shit together.
I miss Eric Kutchey. Its almost equally embarrassing as the fact I miss Jon. I miss everyone. I get too attached.