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So you know when you have those days where everything starts out fine and then the shit hits the fan and you feel like your sinking and no ones hand is there to pull you back to the surface. Yeah...that was today. Or should I say yesterday. To quote the doctor "yeah its bad. It's really bad." When that's what the doctor says to you theres not much hope. I feel so numb right now it's not setting in yet. I just kept telling myself don't let it show because then he'll know. I couldn't bring myself to tell him. I'm mean he's my pap pap. I was just sitting with him last week listen to another war story. I'm glad and honored that he wanted me to stay with him but, then why did I have to be the one to tell my family. This sucks. I'm going to bed. Maybe more tomorrow I'm just to...i don't even know what.