venting
AAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!
I really feel like I need to scream. I need to get this shit out of my system. I feel like life is driving me crazy, like I might actually be losing my mind.
And honestly, it sucks to have someone upset with you over stupid shit when so many more important things are going on. I mean, I suppose I deserve it, and at any other time I'd be more apologetic, but right now, it just doesn't seem like that big of a deal to me in the big scheme of things. Maybe that's wrong of me... but I just can't make myself care that much right now. However, it was my mistake, and I am sorry. There.
Why does it seem like so many people our age are dying? Seriously, I know people older than I am that have never known someone their age that has died. I'm at four. What the fuck is that?
I know I've been bitching on here a lot lately, and I feel bad, but I really need to vent and I feel like this is the only place I can lately. I'm starting to feel like some of the people that are supposed to be the ones there to listen to me are too preoccupied recently. Plus, this way I'm not reallly burdening anyone with my problems, if you don't want to hear it, don't read it.
I should be studying marine biology right now. I have a test tomorrow. I'm just having a really hard time concentrating.
I wish my cousins lived here. I miss them. I got so much closer to my three closest cousins this summer. I just wish I could talk to them about what's going on, because they're family so they aren't afraid to call me on my shit, but they also care about my problems.
I miss you, Joel. <3
I really feel like I need to scream. I need to get this shit out of my system. I feel like life is driving me crazy, like I might actually be losing my mind.
And honestly, it sucks to have someone upset with you over stupid shit when so many more important things are going on. I mean, I suppose I deserve it, and at any other time I'd be more apologetic, but right now, it just doesn't seem like that big of a deal to me in the big scheme of things. Maybe that's wrong of me... but I just can't make myself care that much right now. However, it was my mistake, and I am sorry. There.
Why does it seem like so many people our age are dying? Seriously, I know people older than I am that have never known someone their age that has died. I'm at four. What the fuck is that?
I know I've been bitching on here a lot lately, and I feel bad, but I really need to vent and I feel like this is the only place I can lately. I'm starting to feel like some of the people that are supposed to be the ones there to listen to me are too preoccupied recently. Plus, this way I'm not reallly burdening anyone with my problems, if you don't want to hear it, don't read it.
I should be studying marine biology right now. I have a test tomorrow. I'm just having a really hard time concentrating.
I wish my cousins lived here. I miss them. I got so much closer to my three closest cousins this summer. I just wish I could talk to them about what's going on, because they're family so they aren't afraid to call me on my shit, but they also care about my problems.
I miss you, Joel. <3