Oct 18, 2012 00:06
i'm feeling so many emotions right now
like all of the people i have ever loved and cared for
and spoke to and thought of often
and even some who i have only spent brief time with
are all with me right now
and i feel good about myself
and where i am
and what i am doing
and what i want to be doing
and i want to cry about it
and i'm wondering why i'm being so sensitive about it
cos i'm not really that sad
but i just miss everyone
and mostly i want them all to know i am thinking of them
but i've lost contact with quite a few
and i'm just really glad to be a part of the world even if it is ugly sometimes
there's so much connectivity i keep finding and it always astonishes me
now matter how much i am aware of it
am i sentimental?
i feel like philadelphia was the move i needed
a part of me wishes i could be in new york but i know i am not ready
and that it wouldn't offer me the things that i know i need to be doing now
but i like being so close
and i like having my own space to figure or find out what's next
and it's so wonderful that some folks are only a couple hours away.
and those who are far away will come near
or i will go visit
and feel so many things all over again.
i'm the most sentimental.