It's Not All About You, No, You've got me all wrong
I have a feeling in the pit of my stomach.
It's not a good one.
It's bad.
And I don't know why I'm in a "funk" today. I'm leaving tomorrow and I just, I just don't know...
Fuck being upbeat.
I'm just scared of how things are going to end up. Because from what's been going on lately, nothing's "set" anymore.
It sucks.
It's life.
Boo-hoo.
Fuck it.
But anyways, I'm tired of people. Two important people in my life hooked up and now they're all serious.
Fuckers.
And the reason why I'm pissed is because now all they talk about is each other, and how much they care about one another. And I'm Tired of it.
Because people aren't all about other people.
Or at least they shouldn't be.
I feel sort of left in the dust.
I have other friends, but this was different. I feel a little betrayed because the guy and I were heading somewhere I thought, but she convinced him they were right.
Bitch.
I'm serious.
But hey, it's not going to matter awhile from now.
Still, it does this second.
But I'll get over it.
Except now I get bitchy with the guy. It used to be a "cool" go with the flow fun joking thing, but now as we talk more and more I'm seeing a different side of him, one that gets under my skin.
So I get really opinionated and bitchy and I get this huge attitude and we fight and end up not speaking for a day and then we're totally all good the next.
I don't like that.
But I'm like that with every guy.
Because I don't want to be the dumbass ditz who turns into a complete giggly girl around "her guy" because those girls really annoy me and I've seen friends turn that way and it just rubs me wrong.
Like all of a sudden you can't think for yourself.
I'm not going to let some asshole think for me.
Anyway, there's a weird smell and it's making me nauseus so I'm going to go find out what the heck it is.
It's not a good one.
It's bad.
And I don't know why I'm in a "funk" today. I'm leaving tomorrow and I just, I just don't know...
Fuck being upbeat.
I'm just scared of how things are going to end up. Because from what's been going on lately, nothing's "set" anymore.
It sucks.
It's life.
Boo-hoo.
Fuck it.
But anyways, I'm tired of people. Two important people in my life hooked up and now they're all serious.
Fuckers.
And the reason why I'm pissed is because now all they talk about is each other, and how much they care about one another. And I'm Tired of it.
Because people aren't all about other people.
Or at least they shouldn't be.
I feel sort of left in the dust.
I have other friends, but this was different. I feel a little betrayed because the guy and I were heading somewhere I thought, but she convinced him they were right.
Bitch.
I'm serious.
But hey, it's not going to matter awhile from now.
Still, it does this second.
But I'll get over it.
Except now I get bitchy with the guy. It used to be a "cool" go with the flow fun joking thing, but now as we talk more and more I'm seeing a different side of him, one that gets under my skin.
So I get really opinionated and bitchy and I get this huge attitude and we fight and end up not speaking for a day and then we're totally all good the next.
I don't like that.
But I'm like that with every guy.
Because I don't want to be the dumbass ditz who turns into a complete giggly girl around "her guy" because those girls really annoy me and I've seen friends turn that way and it just rubs me wrong.
Like all of a sudden you can't think for yourself.
I'm not going to let some asshole think for me.
Anyway, there's a weird smell and it's making me nauseus so I'm going to go find out what the heck it is.