to YOU...

[over_rated_life]

ok, not to sound dramatic, stupid, desparate, or anything realted to those, but im over you. not mentally, but im telling myself i am. and i hope to god u read this. basically, what i realized, is that u could care less how i feel. yes, i try to be a good friend...yes, i try to be as available as possible when u need someone to talk to... but where the FUCK are you when i need you? i shouldve realized that day at disneyland. i came out for the sole purpose to see u. bc i figured we should. so tell me why that night sucked?? please enlighten me. bc u seem to know everything, right? yea i thought u were an amazing guy, the perfect guy. but ur nothing different than a cocky asshole. i went out there and we met for all of, what....an hour? yea, real great. and then, im noticing IM the one making ALL the effort to get together. u could give a rats ass if we ever saw each other again. so yes, for the people who dont know... i WAS trying to work in a little chill time btw me n him. but he tells me the other one got him a ticket to a concert....um... WHO THE FUCK CARES???not me, i can tell u that. but yea, so to get to the point... i asked when the concert was... and its on sunday. ummm yea too bad that has NOTHING to do with FRIDAY or SATURDAY... and yea, im sure ur parents hate u. w/e. im sick of putting out all these emotions for u. granted, u did tell me that u dont like me. but i was cool w/ friends. i want to see u AS FRIENDS. and i have no clue what u think that im thinking...so to just resolve all that, im writing in here. but basically... ill just leave u alone. because, all-in-all, thats what u want...right? w/e... i KNOW im a good person, i KNOW im a good friend, and if ur gonna be shallow and not see beyond the fact that i ONCE liked u, then fuck it. its not worth my time. AT ALL. and if im wrong in any of what i said in here....please do contact me....u know my number.

....yea i wont be expecting a call